Jaelliex3

Philippines :)

2011-11-22T19:41:00.002+11:00

Hey everyone.

I am so sorry I've been away for so long. Been busy catching up with the people here in the Philippines. Yes, I am back in the Philippines. It has been awhile since I've landed but I haven't had time to use the comp to update everyone.

Well first of all I am getting so black. I've been going to the beach too much. HAHA, but it's so much fun because I am surrounded by the people I love. It's been really really good to be back. I miss working my ass off though. Everyone treats me differently here, like I am some gem. Precious and fragile ; it is so weird.

I'll update more another time, the weather is getting worst, I gotta get back home.

♥ gee

Smiles. Happiness.

2011-10-17T12:00:00.008+11:00

It's funny how, one moment of your life, you're fighting for something or someone with all you've got and then you'd wake up one day and realise it's not even the same anymore. It's like you're trying your best to make it seem okay. Trying your best to bring it back to the way it used to be, and as much as you know it'll never be the same again there's that little part of you saying, "Maybe just maybe, God will make an exception for me." Then you realise he just won't because it's part of his plans.

For those people who've been waiting to hear more about my EPIC love story with the boyfriend, I don't think I'll be able to give you guys that 'jealous' type of feelings again. We broke up recently and surprisingly it's something I'm happy about. I'd always post happy stuff between us and never the sad things. I'd always make you guys think we're on this love boat that no one can rock but ourselves. We had our ups and our downs, I told myself I'd hold on for a few more beats so I can fight but he never realised when I was hurting the most. I don't want to be just another girl in his life, I don't want to be someone he'd take for granted and I don't want to be the girl that's only there with him because I have to be there because I feel guilty. I don't want to feel a responsible love kind of thing, I want to feel love; because it's LOVE. Catch my drift? If you don't then, I don't know how else I'm going to say it.

A person's heart can only take a few bullshits.

I'm actually happy where we got. I'm sure he's not but at some point of our lives we got to let go of the things that our not ours anymore. I'm sure someday, one day someone will sweep him off his feet again. I'd be more than happy.

It was never stated that if a person knows what makes them happy they can't pursue that happiness. I have all these people looking at me like I'm a slut or a user or a player, but I'm not. I'm just going after what makes me happy not only now but also for the long run. I want my happiness to last me a lifetime, not just because I'm so into it and then it'll die when I don't want it anymore.

Well I'm happy now, end of story. haha.

Bubbalove, you make me happy.

♥ geeeeee :)

KAPOW!

2011-09-16T15:07:00.004+10:00

Hello hello !

A few video blab for this lovely blog of mine. I am sick once again, I seriously don't know what is happening to me but I feel like my immune system is seriously decreasing by the day. But I'm definitely going to be okay, I'm going to survive and live. I hope you all can pray for me to get my old-self back. *sniff sniff*.

First video Update: 'Hello by Huh Gak feat. B2ST'S JUNHYUNG' ; OH HOW BLOODY HOT WAS MY BABY IN THIS VIDEO! (ignores the fact that he made me cry when he got bashed) But anyway the story itself was really touching accompanied by Huh Gak's mesmerizing voice. I cannot wait for part 2.

Review; This video was really flawless. Each characters had their highlighting moments. I loved my baby Junhyung most though. This video should release part 2 already so I can actually be happy. And I praise these characters 100% for their dedication for not resting for the recording of this video. Junhyung my love, you better be resting. Forget about that girl, and just come to me. ;) (there's a hidden message along those lines kekeke ~)

Video Number 2 is actually a video that reminds me of JAY PARK. And I thought Junhyung sort of reminds me of Vanness and then I saw this video I was like 'WTF!? JAY PARK!?' The way VDubb stands, dances, his style of music and the hair reminds me so much of Jay Park. Well without further ado, you decide.

Tell me I am crazy and just simply blind! But I seriously see Jay Park in Vanness. Haha, anyways I best be off to rest before I get hammered again because I am not taking care of myself. Take care everyone.
`♥ jaelliex3/gee.

AFFILIATES

2011-09-11T17:42:00.006+10:00

Hello Hello. Gee here :).

I'll chuck an all-nighter tonight to fix everything I need to fix in this site and over at OBE. I feel like I was lazing around the last two days but I know I haven't because I cleaned the house today haha. So my mum left for the Philippines yesterday and I miss her already, that's what I get for being a Mama's girl. But anyways, I'll see her in two months when I leave for my holiday to spend some time with this boy called my "boyfriend" haha.

Just a quick post to welcome my new affiliates =] . So honoured to have these sites as my affiliates.

Visit them, chat them up and be sure to ask them before you link ;) hehe.

Also POSTER REQUEST is a new request site. Be sure to drop by, apply and request. A

Okay I better be off, I have to go and cook my brother and sister food for dinner. Goodnight for now. I'll be back later I hope. Love you all ♥

♥ Geex3

A quick post

2011-09-09T13:02:00.002+10:00

Hello awesome affies & readers,

Just a quick post to advertise my story "Because of You" featuring Yong Junhyung (B2ST) and Kim Hyuna (4MINUTE). I loved the way this video turned out so I am proud to say that I made it myself haha. Anyway here it is; I'm out.

God bless you all.
♥ Jaelliex3

Last Goodbye.

2011-01-29T22:40:00.002+11:00

We've had our runs and we've had our walks and through it all I thank God for sending you my way always and forever.

You've always been a good good person not only to me but also to the people around me. I know this is going to sound crazy because we've tried goodbye so many times now. We've tried to distance ourselves so many times now but we always end up being right back to where we started. I've said it so many times and regretted it so many times but I ain't going to regret this time.

Imma stand my ground. It will hurt, a lot.

Not only for me but also for you... Especially you. But we can't keep holding on, there's a lot of people in our lives that are slowly getting confused about who we are in each others lives, and honestly when they ask me that, I can't give them an answer. I am not sure whether we are lovers holding onto our past or friends trying to make it into each others future? But whichever one we are, we can no longer be in that position. We need to let each other go so we can find happiness and peace.

I know during the times we spent together, we had a lot of great laughs and great conversations but those days are over now.

Whether you like it or not, I am with him and I am madly deeply in love with him. Nothing or no one could ever make me change my mind. I am set into spending the rest of my life with him by my side.

Letting go scares the hell outta me, but its about time I give you what you deserve; freedom and peace.

So I' m saying my last goodbye, this time, I'll stand tall on my decision.

I pray for your happiness and your future. May you and your girlfriend patch things up. I'll always care and love you...

- Gee

Daddy Loves You.

2010-11-20T23:34:00.002+11:00

Just a quick post.

Happy birthday to the young and wonderful kid named 'Alijah Alexander Ou'. Today marks the 3rd of Lil Crazed being a father. To Alijah, happy happy birthday and know that your father loves you always and he will never let anything harm you. Be proud to have him as a father because he is proud to have a kid like you. May you and your family be blessed...

Salute to Mr. Alexander Edward Ou for being the wonderful father. :)

I GOT HIS NEW SINGLE DADDY LOVES YOU dedicated to his kids. Goodness, I love this boy.

Alright.

Peace.

♥ Gee

Simple As That.

2010-11-14T18:07:00.000+11:00

So how long has it been since I last checked into this thing? Even tumblr for me is already dead, losing the passion to write? Is that what it is? HAHA, I doubt it, I think I'm just too lazy haha. But anyways, if I'm gonna write what happened during the fast few months, it's gonn' be hard because too many things happened... Too many good things that is.

But yes so I finally turned nineteen. WOW, time does fly, it seems just like yesterday I was just 12 crushing over the worst person at school - in everyone's eyes. But now I'm 19 and I'm learning so many new things, whether it would be at work, at home or anywhere. I'm just grateful that GOD is blessing me continually.

You know when people say that mum's knows best? Well its true. They may always be against you in so many things you do but they are ALWAYS right. Even if you argue with me whether they are or not, I'd still say the same thing. They want what's best for us - always. If you think you can't talk to your mum about anything, maybe you're wrong. I mean, because with mine - Honesty between us both gets us through whatever hardship. Like for example, I thought she'd be against this boy I'm seeing but I simply sat down with her and explained the situation... and TADA, we're all good. I don't have to hide anything, I can freely love him and vice versa. I'm just grateful to have an understanding, loving, caring and wonderful mother... I know no matter what I decide she's always gonna be there supporting me. And at the same time she just wants what's best for me. ♥

So to Mr. Michael Angelo Garin, the boy who kept his feelings for me for 6 long months & is now officially courting; I just want to let you know that I'm always gonna be around because ever since the first time I saw you, I knew it was inevitable but we just had to go through some separation to realise it. Even our friends already know that the very first moment we talked, something was already there. It was sort of funny to think that I shared the same sort of feelings with you. I am truly amazed to call you mine (even though we are not official) && I am so proud to be called YOURS. Hehe, them girls can stay jealous.

A year is a long wait but I believe we'll make it through. I'll see you real soon hubby. Always remember dwifeey is coming home real soon! Mwauhz, i miss you & I certainly love you.

Alright, I'll see you all laters. :P

- Gee ♥

officially nineteen & in love.

2010-11-08T23:34:00.000+11:00

So for those who didn't know and still doesn't know.
Today marks my 19th birthday. I have been breathing for 19 years. Been blessed for 19 years and have been loved by many different people for 19 years. I have been through so much shiz before but here I am still standing strong and proud.

Was raise by an amazing mother and was surrounded and still surrounded by wonderful family and friends.
It is such a great feeling to be able to breathe, laugh, smile, blush, etc with people who matters the most to you! It's such a blessed day.

God didn't only bless me with family and friends, he also blessed me with someone whom I think is more than good enough for me. He blessed me with an awesome boy whom I know will always be in love with me and will always take good care of me.

Well, I best be off.

Thanks to everyone who made my birthday special and to those who will still make it special.
I love you all, way soo much!

♥ Gee[dwifeey]

YEARS LATER ...

2010-10-30T21:37:00.002+11:00

30th October 2010.

HAHA, its been forever and ever since I posted here. Sorry for being MIA I have been very busy with things in life. Well, for starters, I don't even go on the computer anymore. It has been like forever, I'm always on my iTouch now. CBB to actually open my computer, it is much better to be laying on top of my bed while tweeting like crazy or FACEBOOK-ING.

So what's been up with me?

Nothing new I guess.

I'm fixing up my school stuff so I can start studying next year, right now working and working and more work. Shiz ayes but it's doing all good, I'm doing good.

I'm contemplating whether I should shut down my tumblr or whatever :S But I don't know yet. Gonna think more lol, anyways I best be off.

&yourstruly; Gee ♥

My plans.

2010-09-20T20:31:00.003+10:00

Busy life.

But then again when is it not busy for me.

I just thought I'd post for a quicky and tell you all what I'm going to be doing for next few days. So tomorrow, I'll be resting because today I didn't get the chance to because of my manager. She called me in for work... again. LOL, I'm not complaining, I just wish she'd call me like half an hour early and stuff. On Wednesday, I'd be working from 11-6:30PM.. So that's another closing time but I think it'll be awesome because I'm working with my close mate, haha, this is going to be so fun. Thursday morning, I'd be sleeping, haha. Around 1:30PM or something I'd be heading to Parramata to meet up with a friend so that I can get my 'Poreotics' tickets, YAY. I'm so excited for October aye? SO much things happening in this world of mine. So after meeting with a friend I'd be going to work, around 5PM-10PM. I'm always closing... So Friday, I'd be working as well, always.

Saturday I'd be going to the City with friends to watch a movie then dinner time. I'm pretty excited about this whole weekend. Sunday, I think I'll be resting again unless they call me up for work and everything. This is so fun and yes that's my play for this whole week.

- Gee

Fairytale.

2010-09-11T11:12:00.002+10:00

&& gotta stop with the fairytale.

Fairytale - Trixx feat. Lil Crazed

I she'd tears writing this song...
That's the last time I she'd tears...
I guess not all fairy tales come with a happy ending.
So lemme tell you how it is, listen up...

[Intro/Chorus:]

I didn't want it like this, but it's how it goes.
Sometimes every love eventually takes it's own roads.
We tried to work it out, but girl we failed.
A waste of a time, just another fairy tale.
I didn't want it like this, but it's how it goes.
Sometimes every love eventually takes it's own roads.
We tried to work it our, but girl we failed.
A waste of a time, just another fairy tale.

Once upon a time there was a boy and a girl.
They Shared so much love they can't ditch
She brought the joy to his world...
They said they'd never leave each other,
Thought that this road was for sure
But little did they know, they was about to make a swurve.
Those three little words were said too soon.
See things aren't the way they used to be.
Now they gotta worry, time ain't even worthy.
Tryna work it out, but clocked out a lil too early...
So she's sittin' at home and contemplating mistakes.
And he's lying all alone trying not to stay awake
Cause he only meets her in his dreams
When he goes to sleep
And she's drowning in their pain
Cause her eyes always weep.
So keep the book shut and don't let it unfold.
Or turn to another chapter for a different story to be told.
Cause all good things must come to a DISASTER.
Here's the reason why they're livin' sadly ever after.

[Chorus:]

I didn't want it like this, but it's how it goes.
Sometimes every love eventually takes it's own roads.
We tried to work it out, but girl we failed...
A waste of a time, just another fairy tale.
I didn't want it like ths, but it's how it goes.
Sometimes every love eventually takes it's own roads.
We tried to work it out, but gitl we failed...
A waste of a time, just another fairy tale.

You took me for granted girl, and now I'm gone.
I gotta let it go, girl, I'm movin' on, movin' on.
I'll admit you swept me off my feet.
But I fell in now...
I'll learn to get back up.
I'm a strong dude with a lotta pride
You played me, had other boys on the side
But I ain't gonna trip, I'm a just let it slide
I'm independent. I don't need you to ride.
You was in the front, but now u in the back.
We was in love and it felt just like that.
And I took the hit, my heart was crying.
All the things you said to me, you was just lying.
I tried and tried but now I'm done trying.
When all you do is just keep on denying,
A fairy tale just a waste of my time.
Days gone by girl, you faded from my mind.

[Chorus:]

I didn't want it like this, but it's how it goes.
Sometimes every love eventually takes it's own roads.
We tried to work it out, but girl we failed...
A waste of a time, just another fairy tale.
I didn't want it like ths, but it's how it goes.
Sometimes every love eventually takes it's own roads.
We tried to work it out, but gitl we failed...
A waste of a time, just another fairy tale.

Everything we worked for it all went down the drain.
I'm sayin this to you cause I can't take the pain.
I shoulda seen this comin rite from the start.
You had it in your hands...
But you tore my heart apart.
I'm standing here and I can't look at your face.
So take the memories I packed it in a suitcase.
My eyes are blurry girl, you mad it hard to see.
You wanna play the game, this game is over with me.
I used to be a fool over and over again.
But not this time, I'm callin' it an end.
The truth hurts but it has to come out.
So go that way and I'll take this route.
And that's the reason why I wrote this song...
You tried to hide it, but I knew it all along.
I got my boys there tellin' me to be strong.
I'm done askin' why oh why you ever do me wrong.

[Chorus:]

So most teenagers out there I'd like to think at this point of my life I'd finally have my fairytale ending but we all know that's impossible. There are no fairytale ending... there's just life. And in this so called life, you have to learn how to be happy with or without someone... But then we will eventually find someone who would make us think they are our happy ever after... Sometimes they are but sometimes they are just another fairytale.

So I have no idea why I keep thinking I have a fairytale.

I should just write my own fairytale ayes? I'm not going to lie in that fairytale just to make myself better, I'm going to be honest and make myself see the difference between a reality and dream.

But when happiness with someone I'd love for the rest of my life comes, I'd be sure to make you all know :) For now, I gotta stop with all these fairytale stuff, it only happens in the movie not unless someone comes to my life and make it seem like a movie hahaha. But whatever, I'll be happy whatever happens from here on out.

& I stopped missing you.

♥ yourstruly ; Gee | 11O91O

Rest in Peace to all the 9/11 victims. To all the family who lost loved ones and who have to go through remembering this horrible day every year, may GOD heal your hearts & know that your loved ones are being taken care of.

♥ Mr.Superfragilistic.

2010-09-07T19:58:00.007+10:00

Hello *wavesshyly*. I know I haven't been around for so damn long but, I've been busy catching up on a lot of things. Doing all these discovering like; how to fully mix my audio and music in one go... (I doubt I can make it happen with one step but it's worth a try), working on my writing again since I haven't been writing and I've been working on focusing on my work lol. I've been sick as well, I don't know why and how it happened but I got sick... but anyways whatever yes?

Okay so what is up with my blog title right? Well it's about this rapper called "Lil Crazed" (Alexander Ou)lately I've been well, stuck with my raps.. Listening to them YT artist who aren't signed yet (that's the part I don't really get, I mean they are soo talented and shiz) but anyways I got this line from his song called "Here We Go" ; "to be specific, i'm ill you will get sick of me like misfits,i'm so terrific, and gifted, and when i spit it, i get numbers and a chick with 7 digits, ya get it?" LOL so that's basically what it means :) (his lyrics helps me) ...

But anyways what makes Lil Crazed different and special for me?

- Umms, let's start off with him having two kids. He had a kid when he was very young, if I am not mistaken he was like 19 when Alijah (his eldest son) was born. There was a lot of sacrifice when it comes to having kids... And it's true, having kids at a young age is not that easy. I love kids and you all know I do but he beats me when it comes to kids. The way he sets an example for them is really admirable. With Alex, he ain't afraid to show and let his fans feels what he's been feeling and what he's been through and still going through. I think for me that's what makes him special. I think his love and care for his kids are really BEYOND this world, and that is why I find him special.

Why did I instantly fell in love with his music and him?

-That's easy... The words each of his song speaks are just plain truth. Its like hearing him rap about the real things in life is so much better than hearing things like: "sex, money etc." His songs are really catchy and meaningful, I don't think I can ever emphasize that even more but yeah. And why did I instantly fell in love with him? haha (not hardcore love people but I think you know what I mean) but ummss for me, he's one of those people whom I'll always be proud of even though in his world I probably don't exist but he is one of the most humble guy out there. He ain't afraid to be himself and he is such a loving father... Who wouldn't love him?

Where do I see him in 10 years?

- He'll still be out there doing his own thing while changing the lives of those who are in need and having a hard time. He'd be sign to a major label company and his songs will be topping charts always... And through all those busy schedules and hectic lifestyle in the music industry, he'd still be the same daddy like he's always been. He'd be happy and he'd be blessed & I'd be proud. HEHE.

Would I ever meet him?

- H E L L TO THE Y E A H! Hehe, yes I'll meet him. He is planning to drop by Australia so I'm going to do everything I can to meet him.

A message for him?

- "Hey Alex. You'd probably never ever find this but just in case you do, I want to let you know that you are an inspiration to a lot of people. Being a father is a big and hard step in life but you make it look so easy. You were blessed with two amazing kids... Alijah and Isaac are two beautiful kids, they will grow up proud for having a father like you, who's willing to give up a lot of things just for them. I know someday you'll be on top of the world koz you're not following your dreams ... YOU'RE LEADING THEM! Whenever things gets hard remember that you have a lot of people ready to lend support, not only your family or friends but also us... YOUR FANS. We'll always be here for you, ready to be one of them saving grace :) You'll make it one day, and when that day comes remember that you deserve it.. Always smile and be happy, no time for sadness =P. Please do stay being the wonderful father you already are... You'll be awesome & DOPE !" - Love always; Gee.

A Prayer for Alex:

"Dear God,

I know I don't have to ask but I'm going to anyways. Please always take good care of Alex and his two beautiful kids and the people surrounding him. Please continue to shower his life with your love, your blessings and your care. Please hold onto him when things get rough and always remind him just how much you love and care for him.

Please always lay your hands upon his kids as they grow up and starts facing the world. Please let them know that you and Alex love them very much.

And music wise, please continue to guide him in the right direction with his career. Please bless his music career.. and I know you'll help him change a lot of lives and the music industry.

In your name I pray.

AMEN."

Living Lavish - Lil Crazed

(tears, like literally cried with this video)

Anyways on another note; new columns will added for my favourite music, artists, lyrics and etc. But anyways, I'll see you all real soon. Sorry to like bore you with my blog for today but I just thought I'd share something like this. Hopefully one day he reads it ^^.

&yourstruly; Gee | O7O91O

I LOVE @TRAPHIK

2010-09-02T23:07:00.003+10:00

Alright, remember that guy I gave the customized hat to? Well he showed that hat for like a quick second haha, and he thanked me and my friend Kathy on Twitter again. This time I didn't SC, I favorited it lol. But anyways, I know half of you aren't interested but whatever, here is his VLOG #135 ; Part 2 In Australia :)

You'll see the hat around @2:34 =]

This really made my night. I was having such a bad one because I had a double shift but this made it worthwhile :)

I LOVE @TRAPHIK ^^.

JReyez, what do you have in store for me and Kathy? hehehe

I'm signing out be back soon tomorrow LOL, I'm in the mood to do some song writing...

;; Processing : Only Look At Me - Taeyang

&yourstruly; Gee | 2O91O

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SISTER :) 14 YEARS OLD ^^.

LOOZE CONTROL 2O1O

2010-08-29T21:54:00.006+10:00

Hey there my sweetie pies. =)

My throat is killing me, it hurts... Thank goodness I didn't lose my voice or else that would be a problem for me because I had work today. It's weird though, I felt like I hardly served a customer though but anyways not here to talk about my Sunday; I'm here to talk about my Saturday... YES?!

Okay so on the 26th of August 2O1O, Timothy DeLaGhetto aka Traphik & JReyez, two out of tons of YOUTUBE stars on the RISE set foot in Australia. They came to attend two events in Sydney and one @ Melbourne. On the 27th of August they attended "Flows At Fridays" if I am not mistaken its like a clubbing seen. The next day was the event I have been waiting for, for like forever and ever haha, but it came...

On the 28th of August 2O1O, JReyez and Traphik stood in front of 3OOO Australian people and performed their hearts out. It was an EPIC, UNFORGETABLE, SMEXYY & AWESOME PERFORMANCES. JReyez was nervous because there was 3OOO people around, if you follow him, he tweeted it. But nonetheless, the boy gave us an unforgettable performance.

...

My Journey before the event.

At around 11 something I arrived at Liverpool to meet up with my wonderful and lovely friend, Kathy. OHMYLIFE SHE'S THE BEST... We hanged out for awhile (does 4hours count as awhile?) haha, but yes we hanged out for that long. But anyways, so I convinced her to buy something for the boys.. We stood for literally half an hour staring at the NERF GUNS, she couldn't decide which one to buy them. But after so long of literally standing in front of those NERF Guns she finally took my advice and took the bigger one... We had so many more funny moments at that toystore; TOYS R US. But anyways, so right after that we went to the place for the event...

We stood around for bloody two hours or something, waiting for them to call all the promoters for the meet&greet. I got so impatient so I asked what was happening only to find out they cancelled the meet&greet. So I got all iffy and all pissed off and wanted to pushed through the crowds and literally find them to give them the gifts I got for them... So I talked to someone about my gifts and she was kind enough to let me and two of my friends go inside first to arrange something. But because of the late performers and some sound problem, they couldn't do anything. So I went inside all pissed off but a friend told me to look for her during the intermission and she'll do something about it and stuff.

So intermission came right.

Kathy straight away came down to where I was and helped me with the gift and also helped me to find my friend. We didn't find her but we found the head staff. We talked to him and tada, it was the moment of truth...

"It was probably one of the best days in my life. When JReyez peeked behind those black curtains and smiled. Never forgetting ♥" I tweeted that today and JReyez retweeted. So not the point but yes.

I was literally blown away when I saw a glimpse of his face. I wanted to die right in front of him haha. JReyez was really tall, he had a really cute smile. He is quiet @ first, but since I was talkative he replied to whatever I was asking and stuff... He extended his hand and I shook it, damn I wanted a hug but got a handshake, but it's okays because I know the next time we meet I know I'd be more relax because it won't be the first time. But yes, I took a photo with him and there's videos of his performance and Traphik's perfs as well.

Sadly I didn't get to meet Traphik because he was busy during the intermission because he was an MC for the event... (Oh btw LOOZE CONTROL is a dance competition) But JReyez was kind enough to walk around the room and get Traphik to sign my book... So I got both of them to sign my book which made me happy as well. Also, I was a couple rows back when they started performing, YAY. I was pretty happy about the whole thing.

It was pretty worth it..

Here's their siggys and the stuff I got them... & Also a SC of them Thanking me on twitter and stuff ^^.

JREYEZ SIGGY &hearts

Traphik says "Thank You" & His SIGGY ♥

THE JUNK FOOD I GOT THEM... =)

I'M PROUD AND LOUD ^^.

TRAPHIK'S CUSTOMIZED HAT.

He liked it, according to him.

Update more when I fix the videos and stuff yess? Anyways, here's their thank you on twitter...

I can't help myself I just keep saying to myself "JREYEZ IS SO HOT AND POLITE" lol I'm obsessed & proud =).

Laters.

Goodluck to JREYEZ and Traphik as they take on the world - head on. I know you both are going to do great things in the music industry.

Goodnight everyone..

&&yourstruly;;

♥ Gee | 29O81O

Meet&Greet / Prayers

2010-08-23T23:18:00.002+10:00

Hey there.

*looks down / facepalm* I haven't posted in awhile. It's sort of like me, haha. Anyways this won't be a long post but just a quicky, koz I really need to head to bed. I should have been tucked in like 2hours ago but things happened and kept me up. But anyways here I go.

On the 28th of this month which is next Saturday around 4PM I would be @ LIVERPOOL, Whitlam Centre for the Meet&Greet @ LOOZE CONTROL. If you have been my posts, Looze Control is where JREYEZ, TRAPHIK, KABAMODERN AND SUPERCREW will be @. I am excited as hell. God bless my brother for giving me his spot. Only promoters, staffs and the dance crews are allowed to go to the meet&greet but thanks to my brother, I am getting the chance to meet them... AUTOGRAPH ♥ So I was pretty blessed this whole week :)

Not long ago, there was a news about a hostage taking in Manila and the man responsible for the taking was reported dead. I'm not sure of the casualties yet but please I'm asking you all to pray for those who are still in the hospital and for the families of those who have died... Also I know what that hostage taker did was wrong but I don't think dying was the answer. So please stop hating on him, forgive him just like God will. I know that hard but I don't think he enjoyed doing what he did, I'm sure some point of that 11hours of hostage taking, he too was as scared as the rest of his hostage.

Please, I am asking again. Please pray for them...

&yourstruly;

geebhayybyy | 230810

Happy Birthday To The One & Only...

2010-08-18T08:09:00.003+10:00

Happy birthday to the one and my only ... KWON JIYONG! Oh my life my baby aged another day but he is still as awesome as he should be. This post is only a quicky because I have to go to work in like 2 minutes. But just thought I'd post this here. I love you GD, gotta keep your head's up with whatever is coming your way. Stay strong and know that I love you always and always (eventhough some people reckons you are a bit weird with your fashion) ; this girl don't give a crap. You are who you are and I'm sure you'd love me just the way I am... OHHHHSHIZ!!! A girl can dream people :)

I'll be off for now.

&yourstruly;

geebhabyy | 180810

Edit;

I promise to edit right?

Not much though, just a picture I made. I'm like 6minutes late but it is the thoughts that counts ♥

I'll never get over loving this guy. He is my forever kpop love.

A friend said to me: "I thought by now you'd be over your addiction to GD"

I laughed and said: "Mate, That's never going to happen"

To my man KWON JIYONG;

Damn, I gotta say.. you're getting older and older haha :P But you're still young @ heart. I know you'll never get to read this or any other posts I made relating to you but I just want to wish the best of luck in your career. And let us hope that what they are saying

about you dating that model ain't true because if it is

I will convict you for cheating and lying to me (kekeke) I'm kidding.

But seriously, Stay as awesome and as weird fashioned as you are

because the more you are different from them, the more my love gets stronger for you.

Whatup!!! I am such a fan girl but may god bless you always and

stay as handsome as you are ;)...

DAMN I AM SO IN LOVE WITH YOU.

Happy birthday boyfriend ♥ Always and forever.

P.S I pre-ordered my BIG SHOW 2010 ; EXCITED!!!

♥ yourstruly;

geebhabyy | 19o810

Gotta let you go.

2010-08-17T18:36:00.002+10:00

[ Gotta Let You Go ]

The one song that broke me down, crying like there's no tomorrow. It was the worst, the lyrics, the verses speaks for itself... speaks for my situation anyways. I just gotta let you go boy ...

Ooooooh
Hmmmm Yeah

Na'Sha:
There was a time that I once loved you
There was a moment I could trust you
Now that it's over
I can't believe it
I can finally breathe again

You say you don't understand
So I take you by the hand
Then I remind you
How you control me
I can be myself again

Then you remember what you did to me
And all the things you said to me
Oh, and baby I'm movin' on

CHORUS:
I don't wanna let you go
But I need my space to grow
Baby, I'm sorry
I know you need me
But I gotta let you go
And I don't mean to break your heart
I wish I know this from the start
You say that you're sorry now that I'm leaving
But I gotta let you go

Jeremy:
I was s'pposed to be the one
Instead I left you all alone
Baby I'm sorry
Can you forgive me
I don't wanna let you go

You say that you need some time
When I thought everything was fine
Now that you're leaving
I can't believe it
Baby baby please don't go

I can't remember what I say to you
And all the lies I told to you
Oh

Na'Sha:
And baby I'm movin' on

CHORUS:
Girl I don't wanna let you go
But I need my space to grow
Baby, I'm sorry
I know you need me
But I gotta let you go
And I don't mean to break your heart
I wish I know this from the start
You say that you're sorry now that I'm leaving
But I gotta let you go

BRIDGE:

Jeremy:

I know there are time our love could grow
But you don't believe in me anymore

Na'Sha:

But that time's enough for things you do
And I'm not sure if you've been true
'Cos I'm not in love with you anymore

CHORUS:
I don't wanna let you go
But I need my space to grow
Baby, I'm sorry
I know you need me
But I gotta let you go
And I don't mean to break your heart
I wish I know this from the start
You say that you're sorry now that I'm leaving
But I gotta let you go

It's called letting go.

Goodbye to you. I'll always love you and you've got a piece of my heart always. If we're meant to be, time will find its way to getting us back together... but I highly doubt that after a few years you'll be change.

&yourstruly;

geebhabyy! | 170810

GP BASIC - GAME

2010-08-16T22:54:00.003+10:00

Okays so I am back so soon.

I couldn't help myself but I had to blog about this :)

Aren't they the youngest girl group in KPOP? :S Correct me if I am wrong yee? But anyways, I think they are pretty good. Janey's my bias on this girl group. For such a young girl she's pretty awesome ayes ♥ . I just hope they don't change the image of this young girl, if they make her wear high heels, imma start hating on GPB lol but seriously, I don't want her to mature quickly. I like her as this cute little girl. Anyways enough said, I like GP BASIC :)

OH AND ONE MORE THING! GD IS SO NOT DATING THAT GIRL :) He is fully committed to me ;) LOL Thats what I keep telling myself haha .

&yourstruly;

geebhabyy | 160810

Life. Tell me goodbye.

2010-08-16T22:06:00.003+10:00

What up?!

I feel so good today for some reason. Can anyone tell me why? LOL. Things hasn't been as good as they are suppose to be but I'm managing through, I have quite a lot of friends who's there for me making me stronger each steps I take. MikEe.H, my blessing have been inspirational and well good for me nowadays. He's been a really good friend... One thing he said I will never forget and will always make me smile: "Gee, I'm only a blessing if you're smiling". Some are asking me if I'm recovering well, honestly, I am. I never thought it'd be easy but I am recovering. There's nights where I would stay up and think if I did the right thing, contemplate and look at the situations on another light but I'm okay. I got hurt and was left with a scar but here I am moving on.

Life's like that you know.

It chucks the worst case scenario at you trying to see whether you'll survive or not. Whether you'd allow yourself to be miserable for a long time or actually waking up earlier to get up and try again. Life plays tricks on you, always remember that. But even so you gotta remember that it is always part of growing up, either you live with it or live a life full of misery.

ROFL @ MYSELF ! IDK, what I am on about but whatever... The point is, LIFE ISN'T AS HARD AS YOU THINK IT IS, WE JUST MAKE IT HARD FOR OURSELVES. I am not angry, just trying to emphasize.

On another note.

I got my friend HIRED! YAY, now we are subway buddies ^^. I'm excited to work with him, I think it will be sooo fun ayess. Well, I'll end my post with this song.

Tell Me Goodbye - BIG BANG =)

(I MISS THEM !!! WHERE ARE THEY?!)

[Lyrics Translated]

Letting you go...(here's somebody...)
Letting you go...(here's somebody...)
Yo I got this, yeah
still thinking about this thing alot
you got me shaken up
(Please tell me there's a way)
And it got my head just spinnin' round round round round
(Please tell me there's a way)
Don't wanna take a fall
It's best to break it up
It's gonna be better for you, move on
(Please tell me there's a way)
Uh huh we break it break it
Or thought we make it make it
And now we cover it up

Girl I swear I won't even for a second
cause you any pain
in order to protect you
there's already no other way

Baby our love itself brings us pain
And I got nothing, nothing to say

Tell me goodbye, tell me goodbye
those hands that embraced me
Tell me goodbye, tell me goodbye
seem to be letting go
if forgetting me will give you freedom Baby
Tell me goodbye, tell me goodbye

Girl you know when you lose your smile
I will place the blame on myself
Those words, and even the light
I will lose sight of everything else

Baby the moment our lips part this time
I'll never find better, better than you

Tell me goodbye, tell me goodbye
those hands that embraced me
Tell me goodbye, tell me goodbye
seem to be letting go
merely being by my side is not kindness Baby
Tell me goodbye, tell me goodbye

Yo and it's so, so
Sad it just ain't happening
Wish it could be better
Sorry to scrapping
But I just can't let ya
To be less than happy
I said look at me
I couldn't live with myself seeing you lacking
The things you deserve
Baby you was superb
Best believe that it hurts
That bleeds this word
I feel the aching through my body
it just takes a bigger part of me
to be let you go
I wish that werent so

your voice, pained and fading away, away...
erased completely by the wind, stay, stay...

all these things, I can't take it, those tears, don't cry for me
for your sake I'll never look back again

Tell me goodbye, tell me goodbye
those hands that embraced me
Tell me goodbye, tell me goodbye
seem to be letting go
merely being by my side is not kindness Baby
Tell me goodbye, tell me goodbye
Tell me goodbye

Best song.

So I'll see you all soon? Missing most of yous.

yours truly;

geebhabyy | 160810

He did change.

2010-08-15T15:44:00.003+10:00

&& wanted to let me bleed cause they envy me but I'll never lose to plain ol jealousy.

- Jay Park (I'm Beamin')

So I was browsing through some old and new Jay Park videos and I must say he did change. Nothing bad or serious but looking at him now - he seems stronger and more planted. I ain't saying he wasn't before but there something different about this boy. Something have definitely changed in him. My friends and I were discussing about him the other day and well she was telling me somehow for her Jay has become overrated and me being the same old Gee, defended Jay hehe. For me he is not overrated I think its only because of the fact that well he wasn't seen on TV for awhile... We haven't seen him perform live and singing to his own songs on stage.

I cannot deny the fact that something in him changed because something has.

I don't know what I am on about but Jay did change.

But I love him nonetheless.

His lyrics are all so tight nowadays. Writing lyrics through his experience is such a good thing. At least through good music he gets to express the way he's been feeling or what he is feeling now. I am so very proud of this boy.

I just feel so sad that Australia wasn't included in the AOM tour. LOL, not that Australia is counted as part of ASIA (?) I don't know my geo. but still I want to see AOM, especially STEP! I think it will be awesome to see them around. I'd cook for them, invite them over and shiz ;) HAHA, a girl can dream hunny. But whatever, as long as they come visit Sydney, I'd be the happiest. Just to see them smile for once is going to last me an entire lifetime. Naww, he's got tattoo now too. "Always Come Proper" I read somewhere that's what it said and then theres dates under it. I saw the number (08) on it. But I read somewhere that the numbers represent birthdays of his fams. :S IDK, there's so much speculations about his tattoo. His AOM tatt is BEAST ;) It looks yummy... Which he made it more visible though hehe.

Anyway, I'm sick atm. Feeling sooo weak and just dead T.T

I'd leave you with this video.

YES YOU HEARD HIM! He just swore.

The audio of this video ain't synced with him so I have no idea what's wrong with it haha, he said on Twitter he couldn't fix it. But anyways, whatever, I better head off, I have so much to fix... Remind me to buy boxes for a few things. Alright I'm off.

yours truly;

geebhabyy

no looking back.

2010-08-14T21:30:00.003+10:00

What up? I'm hungry.

.

How exactly do you plan on moving forward if you keep looking back?
My advice to you is to stop looking back. Well that's my advice for me as well. I've give up on trying, because I am so sick of trying. I never thought I'd give up but I gave it a good four months. I even gave it a second chance but wtf? In the end I'm still the selfish one? And he's got all the rights to start cussing and start hating? I don't know ayes, I'm just so sick of trying to see a different light of him. It seems like he doesn't even care and all he thinks about is himself. Apparently he is the only one hurting and well hurting. But fck I'm crying to so what is he on about. And plus I ain't the one cussing all the time.

Now that I thought about it I'm not sure if it was real love. Stupid I know but, I think I was in love with the idea of loving him that I actually thought I love him. *haizt.

Dunno what I am on about? Good. Let us keep it that way.

yours truly;
geebhabyy!

new layout.

2010-08-13T00:09:00.002+10:00

Alright yay.

I got me some new layout :) Thanks to Serena the BEAST for making me this wonderful layout. My sexy BIASES... YES, people, my BIAS. So it 12:09AM, I have an appointment @ 8:50 then going out with friends YAY, good for me. I get a day off from work. Ya know how it is :)

I worked double shift yesterday hectic crazy, I wanted to die... NEVER AGAIN ! (maybeee...)

But anyways gonna make this quick, I really can't keep these eyes open. Imma sleep it off now. So umms, I had a Jay Park marathon today... I have no idea why but I just did. He made the song 'Best I Ever Had' stuck in my head. It is crazy really... Did you guys realise when he rapped that song, he never said "hoes" instead he said "chicks" (if I remember correctly) ; the respect this boy have for us girls is just OHMYGOOSSHHH !!

Anyways off to sleep ...

THANKS AGAIN SERENA YOU BEASTLY GIRL FOR MAKING THIS BEASTLY/VIP/ELFY LAYOUT ;)) \

goodmornight.

yours truly; geebhabyyy

random.

2010-08-03T22:09:00.006+10:00

Okay so who's ready to hear about my day? LOL no one prolly but anyways, I like blogging so here I am! So I worked from 12-4 today in another branch, not my usual Subway branch... I thought it'd be the same as like the one I'm always working at but I thought wrong. This place was so hectic busy, I was unfamiliar about where the things where and I didn't really know the people I was working with. But... I got along with them just fine because basically friends tells me I never had a problem with dealing with new people and that's true. I'm so bubbly and stuff, maybe that's why I get along with new people. Whatever the reason is, I thank GOD I'm good at getting along with people.

So before I went to work, I had half an hour to kill @ Morning Glory, love that store too much. Well, yes I was there for like half an hour, trying to figure out what to buy for me, BOBO and TAM eventually I ended up buying their book for the ONE MONTH CHALLENGE haha. So B wanted a maroon notebook, but I am not sure if what I've got is maroon :S I'm colour blind ya know! LMAO, Whatever though - it is the thought that counts, ayes BOBO? ;) *nodsherhead* ; I bought TAM and calming looking spring notebook because I liked the notebook so I bought it haha. It's all good in the hood...

I also bought leggings for the t-shirt I bought from Yesstyle ; it's for my LOOZE Control outfit! HAHA, I'm full excited... Let's pray my work won't kill it for me. *fingerscrossed*. I also bought new nail polish and a nail polish remover that smells like grapes... no jokes. But anyways, all I am missing are the following:

Shoes (can't decide whether I'd wear pumps or just sneakers or boots)

Eye liner

Mascara

I keep telling myself way before LOOZE Control to buy a new eye liner because mine disappeared but no, I always forget. So maybe tomorrow before work, I'll shop around ayes.. what do you guys think? Or should I just wait next week and then shop around? Whatever, I want clothes again. I bought a new jumper couple weeks ago and until now, I still haven't used it. It's like hanging on my door... haha!

Anyway I better go and start writing on the books I bought ^^.

ADVANCE HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY BELOVED GOD-CHILD ; John Kevin DeChavez ; naww my baby boys all grown up now. *sigh, it sucks I ain't there to see him turn four. But I'm there in spirit & also we should not forget, I FUNDED THAT BIRTHDAY PARTY I'm awesome that way ;)

♥ Gee | 3/8

a thousand goodbyes.

2010-08-02T21:59:00.003+10:00

A Thousand Goodbyes Lyrics

[Verse 1:]

How many times?
It's hard to say
That I've waken up next to a note on the bed
Got on a plane I'll be back next week
And left without so much as a kiss on the cheek
You're always gone and I'm never home
You taught me everything I know about being alone
What do I do when I need you who do I call
When I don't wanna do it no more

[Chorus:]

I'm not trying, making you hurt
You're getting exactly what you deserve
You can't tell me that I don't
Have every reason in this world to leave you right now
I can count a thousand times that you made me cry
A thousand games that you use to play
And so I guess that's a thousand goodbyes
A thousand goodbyes
So many I have to say

[Verse 2:]

Tell me what you're thinking
When I told you that me and you
We are finally over
Making a memory
That's ancient history
I know I can't help but keep this over my shoulder
Love is like a month that never goes away
And you got part of my heart that I forever gave away
What do I do when I need you
Who do I call
'cause I don't want to do this no more

[Chorus:]

I'm not trying, making you hurt
You're getting exactly what you deserve
You can't tell me
That I don't
Have every reason in this world to leave you right now
I can count a thousand times that you made me cry
A thousand games that you use to play
And so I guess that's a thousand goodbyes
A thousand goodbyes
So many I have to say

[Bridge:]

There's nothing that's harder for me
In this world and
Not be your girl
But I won't stand for cheating in the highs
You're no kind of man
You won't get any respect from me
'cause you were never there you neglected me
I'd rather spend my nights with somebody
Who treats me like
I'm suppose to be treated all along

[Spoken:]

Man I gave you everything, gave you my time, I gave you my heart
But you couldn't give me anything in return
For all the late nights I worried about you
A thousand times you didn't call
A thousand tears you never cried
All I have left for you
Is a thousand goodbyes

[Chorus:]

I'm not trying, making you hurt
You're getting exactly what you deserve
So you can't tell me that I don't
Have every reason in this world to leave you right now
I can count a thousand times that you made me cry
A thousand games that you use to play
And so I guess that's a thousand goodbyes
A thousand goodbyes so many I have to say

It's all that I have
It's all that I have
To say
For all the lies a thousand goodbyes

....

oOOo, ANYONE CAN RELATE?! I'm so in love with this song. I can relate to it so badly... yes yes, its that jerk again! LOL, so lately him and I haven't spoken which is a good thing because whenever we do, I just wanna smash his head against the wall. I know I'm so violent but seriously, he makes me feel sooo blahh ! But yes anyways it is so good that we haven't talked, so I haven't been angry nor pissed.

I think something is wrong with me though, I'm mostly angry nowadays. And I ain't PMS-ING because its not that time of the month yet, but ohmygosh, I just wanna cry ayes... It annoys me because I get angry at the wrong people. It's like I'm one of those pregnant girls being all hormonal haha, funny but true.

Back to the song, my favourite lines are the bold & italics one. The underlined and bold one is the line that is sooo true! He did make me cry, a thousand times. I listened to this song @ work while doing preps and I swear a tear dropped from my eye... I knew the song hurt - I had to find it!

.

On another note, so like BoBo and I are talking about letters and something came into my mind. LOL, I decided to do a ONE-MONTH-CHALLENGE meaning ; I'd write her letters everyday for a month. I missed this girl too much ayes, and she misses me too... I can tell ;) She said my writing is pretty but for me my writing is so normal and plain. HER WRITING IS BEAST!!! I love her writing like no jokes, I love it. Soo, I'm also doing this for my bunso ; TAM. She's awesomeness, I wonder when her SOLAR album will come ayes? Hopefully tomorrow or Wednesday.

LOOZE CONTROL is coming !!!! LOL, 26 days to LOOZE CONTROL, SYDNEY PEOPLE MARK YOUR CALENDAR BECAUSE TRAPHIK, JREYEZ, KABAMODERN & SUPER CR3W's knocking at our doorsteps! I'm so excited, I full got my tix and shiz. My brother's the promoter so it was easy to get my tickets and stuff ;) Anyway this is all happening on the 28th of this month. Traphik is going to be hosting the EVENT. And for those who doesn't know who Traphik or JReyez are; one thing for me to say ... YOUTUBE!!! It's going to be EPIC ... JReyez is pretty pumped ayes :) Wouldn't missed them for the world, HOPEFULLY WORK WON'T KILL MY FUN!! LOL, its Saturday night so I guess it'll be alright because I normally work morning on Saturdays.

Anyways, I better go. Manager called before and asked me to work @ 12-4 at Parramatta so I gotta travel earlier so I can buy a book and other things ^^. I'll see you all real soon.

Weather: Raining hard + Wind = Best Sleep

♥ Gee | 2/8

iced coffee.

2010-07-31T23:34:00.002+10:00

Hey hey.

Okay so like mum's pissed atm because my little brother's still not home from wherever he is. Apparently he fell asleep @ his friends. HAHA, funny guy, I bet he's just using that as an excuse to not come home yet. HAHA. So anyways, I worked today =] . Started @ 8:30AM, I slept @ like 5 then woke up @ 6 (it takes me an hour to get ready). Why is the title of this post iced coffee you might ask? THAT'S THE REASON WHY I COULDN'T SLEEP!

Because I was motivated to write last night, I drank the iced coffee I got from work. So I just kept drinking and drinking it. HAHA and it kept me awake until 5, so I am never again drinking ICED COFFEE at night.

TBH, I don't really like coffee, but somehow this drink just gets to me. I went to work and drank another to keep me awake while working, I'm such a crazy person for thinking maybe I can be wonder-woman LMAO! Jzt kiddings ayes.

Anyways i'm off. Church today ^^ .

♥ Gee | 31st/7

messed up boy.

2010-07-31T00:03:00.003+10:00

&& everyday he wonders what he did wrong... ain't it clear?

He messes me up so freaking badly but I'm still standing by his side! WHY? I, too, doesn't have an answer to that question... okay I lied. Maybe I do. I'm afraid that if I call it quits on the friendship he'd do something ridiculous ayes. He's capable of it, I'm playing a big role in his life, even though I shouldn't be, I am. He makes me so crazy. I just want to see him and give him the biggest slap a girl could ever give him to wake him up.

He's such a JERK!

He's self-absorbed!

He's so selfish!

He makes me cry!

He makes me wanna jump off a bridge and not ever wanna see him again...

Yet through all those...

I'm still stuck by his side

Haha, can I be more stupid? Man, I only want these following from him;

1. HONESTY How hard is it to be honest ayes? I mean, I'm always honest about how I am feeling towards him but why can't he do the same?
2. UNDERSTANDING This is the main problem with him. He can't bLOODY understand me. Everything I do has to be about him or for him or related to him... It's like, HELLO, THINK ABOUT HOW I FEEL!
3. STOP MAKING ME CRY! this should be number 1 but what the hell ayes. But whatever, I just want him to stop making me cry.

messed up boy... meet messed up girl

~~haha, it'sLIKEwe'reFCKENmeant4eachother!~~

No, people. It's not what you think, I am not in any relationship or anything like that. He's just another boy who messes me up

Grrrr !!! I better head to bed ayes. Work @ 8:30AM *sigh.

Last day of July...

♥ Gee | 31/7

fixed my problem.

2010-07-30T12:45:00.001+10:00

YAY, I fixed my blogger problem. HAHA, I downloaded OPERA as my new browser since SAFARI was being a losser T.T. My little brother will eat me alive once I get home and he finds this browser haha. As if he's the only one allowed to download stuff ayes? Anyways, so I fixed my problem, I can finally post here and there ^^. I'm soo happy. I thought I'd share :)

♥ Gee | 30/7

proof-read/belated/HBD

2010-07-23T23:57:00.003+10:00

What am I doing now? It's currently 11:57PM (23/7) and I am proof-reading Ghost Love before re-posting in on winglin. Weird, I know but that's exactly what I will be doing. So the old link, forget about it. This time, I am definitely writing down my password. HEHE, or tell someone about it ayes, so they can remember for me.

I just wanna say belated happy birthday to two of my DONGSAENGS, Jenny&Suewey ; twins. Yesterday was their birthdays and I am sorry I was late in greeting. I greeted u both on fb and I hope you read it haha. Now, I wanna say happy birthday to TAM NGUYEN... HAHA, YOU'RE OLD NOW :) Aren't you happy? I am :P Anyways take good care guys/girls. Imma proof-read these so I can post them tomorrow night :)

♥ Gee 24/7

post before work

2010-07-23T12:25:00.002+10:00

Working in like 2hours or something.
So I woke up this morning and found that the image in my old layout disappeared T.T Jtoasn must have taken it off from her photobucket. *sigh. So anyways, I have been working a lot nowadays. But I'm having 3days off which is good, YAY! I get to write. Oh, did I mention the new story I wrote for a challenge @ AAC? Well, it's here The Art of Letting Go ; feat. Kwon Jiyong & Kim Lee-Ann ;) Anyways, its a two-shot story... I reckon one of the best I have written for a two-shot haha. It's like the second two shot I have ever written so LMAO. But yes, it was pretty good. That story is based on me learning how to let go and all that stuff. I thought I'd write a story about it when I heard about the Challenge @ AAC. So I hope I get to win even 3rd place haha. Gosh, I'm a dreamer ayes?

Ghost Love? That's still on the process, I'm on my 3rd chapter of proof-reading so should be up soon. Umms, I forgot my password on winglin again, so I think I'm gonna have to repost that haha, I'm so bad with passwords ayes? I really can't ehelp it though. I just don't remember. I tried all my usual password but it ain't that one so like ohmygosh, IDK. Since I have 3days off work, I can finish Ghost Love's Chapters and post them and then repost the story ayess. I think it's going to be awesome, since there's new writers on winglin, more readers for me haha. And they also have an alternative place to read my stories so whenever winglin is down, they can read on my blog.

Anyway, I better get ready, I'm pretty slow nowadays. I'll see you all tonight :) I finish @ 6:30, should be home around 7. I'll blog again, take good care.

&& C~BABYY UNNIE MISSES YOU !

♥ Gee 23/7

sometimes we forget...

2010-07-20T02:09:00.003+10:00

*sigh, I feel so troubled right now. I shouldn't be but I am.

I remembered a few months back, I was a girl who lived through everyday with no doubts, no regrets and nothing holding her back... I lived through a life with friends who comes from all over the world. I was an unni, a big sister to a lot of girls. But lately, I've been failing to be the sister they have looked upto. I miss the days when, I'd hop online and talk to those girls about how life was treating them and continuously reminding them that I was there for them and that everything was going to be okay. I use to be that GIRL! I miss being the girl everyone relied on. The girl who stops caring about how she's feeling once she hears something was wrong with one of her friends...

I guess I just miss being me.

Sometimes we just forget...

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~~it bloody hurts.~~

♥ Gee 20.o7

Jay Park .

2010-07-14T00:23:00.003+10:00

GOSH I MISSED HIM ! That's all I can say ♥
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OH WAIT! THAT'S NOT!

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HE IS SOOO DAMN LOVELY AND JUST SEXYY IN THIS VIDEO !!!

♥ Gee 14.7

FINALLY!

2010-07-12T00:49:00.003+10:00

&& second chances are given to you so you can do things differently.

OHMYGOSHHH !!! DO YOU KNOW HOW HAPPY I AM RIGHT NOW!?!?

Superrr happy... Finally MOZILLA isn't failing on me. I can blog properly now, ohmygosh! How many days have I wanted to write on this blog. The last time I did, it was such a fail and well I was depressed. haha.

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So how are things for me?

Things are sort of going good.

I've been distracting myself by reading books nowadays. So I'm currently reading 'Wuthering Heights' haha, I haven't moved from page 5 because I've been sorting a lot of stuff nowadays. I sorted myself out so I'm pretty happy :)

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I CAN'T WRITE ANYMORE!!

I tried writing my one-shot challenge but keeps failing. I fail nowadays... And another thing, my NOTEBOOK is having some difficulties. T.T I just want to cry so much, I can't update my bloody story because I can't move them to my main PC. I have to rewrite everything on my main PC and it is taking awhile because long chapters... anyways, I'm off.

♥ Gee | 12th/07

Except you and me.

2010-07-06T00:23:00.002+10:00

&& we're excepted by that fact.

Depression.

Confusion.

EFF, I'M STUFFED!

Okay so not long ago, depression hit me once again. I don't even know why... it just did.

~~I think someone set if off~~.

But idk you know. They say that anything is possible, I know most of my life I've believed that saying. But now I just don't know anymore...

Anything is possible .. except me and you.

I knew it from the very beginning, that it'd be impossible. But I tried telling myself, maybe just maybe this will be possible. But obviously by the way things are turning out, it ain't. It's always going to be imposibble. We're excepted from that fact. ~~Him and I?~~ it is a NO GO ZONE!!! Not making sense to any of you? GOOD, I don't want to make sense right now. You know what? fcuk it! ... Peace.

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♥ Gee 6th July 2o1o

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Oh yeah HAPPY 2MONTHS! ; let's not forget yee? haha. GAWD IMY !

zee lists.

2010-06-30T15:25:00.007+10:00

&& time to keep myself distracted.

Hi !

I know in everyone's life, they want to do something or want to buy something. That is why they keep a list of it, well I thought I'd list the things I want to do and buy before I go insane and disregard any of them. It would be under categories so I hope I get all of them done, and also I hope I can buy 'em things I want.

Books ;

Dear John by Nicholas Sparks.
A Walk To Remember by Nicholas Sparks. (~~who knows where mine is~~)
The Last Song by Nicholas Sparks.
The Guardian by Nicholas Sparks.
The Lucky One by Nicholas Sparks.
~~The Short Second Life of Bree Tanne~~~~r by Stephenie Meyer.~~
Shakespeare Collections (I remember telling you guys on my LJ back in the days that I'm saving him for last hehe)
The Pact by Jodi Picoult.
Picture Perfect by Jodi Picoult.
My Sister's Keeper by Jodi Picoult. (I love this one, too heartbreaking)
The Tenth Circle by Jodi Picoult.

KPOP;

Shine A Light Concert - G.Dragon (Yes, I still don't have it T.T)
SOLAR Album - TAEYANG (Anyone want to tell me where to buy the DELUXE album?)
FT Island MBC Collection
After School Singles (1-3)
Scandal Repackage - Kangta and Vaness
The Evil Twin (DVD)
Tell Me Goodbye (Japan Version)
8eight First Mini Album

Clothes/Shoes;

Buckled Ankle Shoes ( link )
Racerback Tank Top ( link )
Contrast-Trim Canvas Backpack ( link )
Lace-Up Sneakers Detail Wedge Pumps ( link )
Lace-Up Sneakers Detail Pumps ( link )
Jumper Shorts ( link )
Drawstring Sweat Shorts ( link )
"U Smile" Print Top ( link ) - I found this really cute hehe.
Lace-Up Wedge Sandals ( link )
Lace-Up Wedge Sneakers ( link )
Denim Shorts ( link )

HAHA , there goes a lit of things I want to buy.

Things I want to do 4 now ;

Watch Karate Kid with Kim.
Watch Eclipse.
Watch Shrek.
Go back to the City to chill for a whole day.

Anyways I lost track of the things I want to do so whatever right now .

Working tomorrow, 6PM-10PM. I don't like late nights, that means it is busy day! Damn, closing once again, I don't like closing haha. I closed last night already, I gotta close again haha. I think its good experience though, I love Subway.

I'm off now.

♥ Gee | 30th.June.2o1o

the usual.

2010-06-28T14:37:00.005+10:00

&& surrender through fiction to look for the truth.

Hi!

Blog addict much?

HAHA not really, I have nothing to do so I thought I'd blog again. I woke up pretty late today, who knows what time I slept. I remember getting off the computer @ 2 then I went to my bedroom and stayed up to write and I fell asleep... I woke up this afternoon with my PC dead, low batt. HAHA, I must have left it open the whole night. But anyways, at least I progressed with my story. I'm gonna get killed by those who reads it. Ayes, look @ my chat-box, I have new messages =] Aren't you happy for me? Well I'm happy for me.

I just got a message from my sister @ Phils. She told me how her youngest son is going to school now, kindergarten. I'm his God-Mother so whatever they decide I have to know about it. The thing about Kevin is, he's a quiet child, very obedient and he's really nice. He doesn't really like playing with other kids he doesn't know, mostly he plays with my other God-Child - Kesha (my 2ND eldest brother's kid). So my sister told me that he started today but was crying @ school because he didn't know anyone at school, so they decided to put my other God-Child to school as well. So now both Kevin&Kesha attends school now. I promised my brother that if she starts going to school, I'd be supporting her. So now that she is going to school, I have to work longer hours and harder to send her to school; I love the kid. When I was at the Philippines she calls me "Mummy-Tita" it was really cute. She was so sweet to me and stuff so that's probably why I fell for her. She's just to adorable ayes?

How exciting is this ayes? My kiddo's going to school now!!! HAHA, I sound like I'm the parent sending her kid to school ! But it's really exciting for me, you all know how much I love kids right? I mean I take care of them at Sunday School and stuff. But I'm bloody excited =]

♥ Gee | 28th.June.2o1o

rambles on.

2010-06-28T01:33:00.005+10:00

&& let me tell you this; "I always pray that you'd end up next to me"

Goodmorning.

So who's stalking me today? ;) So today is currently 28th June 2o1o, my friend Rachel finally turns 18. Oh my, who knows how long she's been waiting to be legal. She's one of the closest girlfriends I have right now. She's a great girl who have been through so much. She gets knocked down but she gets back up and try again, and that is something that makes me love her even more. So to my beautiful girl, may GOD bless you more on this wonderful day. May all your wishes and heart's most desire be granted today. Know that you can always call me when you need help and we you need someone to remind you just how beautiful you are, inside and out. Go out, party hard just don't come home wasted :P haha, I love you always and HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY LOVELY!!!

SO LIKE JUNE IS ENDING!! So that means July is coming (wouldn't need a genius to figure that one out) but yes, June is ending and that means CHASE VINCENT MALONE'S 'TWENTY-10' is almost at its released date! I've been waiting for this album since MARCH! And Jay just updated his twitter with; " = ) just got done recording with cha cha, feelin the final product. " Don't you just reckon this is bloody awesome!??! I have been waiting for this collab ever since I commented CHACHA on his YT! I can't wait to get my hands on that album ^^. LAURA BABYYY I KNOW YOU ARE AS EXCITED AS I AM !!! This is just way too exciting.

It's 1:57AM.

What am I doing up?

I have no freaking idea.

But Imma head to bed soon so I'm cutting this short.

Laters everyone.

♥ Gee

She blabs.

2010-06-27T19:21:00.006+10:00

&& Pain is inevitable. Suffering is optional.

Sunday night.

So I didn't work today. And I didn't go to church either.... oOoO bad chick. HAHA, nah I have a reason you know. My grandma came back from the Philippines. I got my yummy shoes back lol, for those who didn't know I left that shoes in the Philippines. It just slipped off my mind that I wore shoes when I flew down there, and came back to Australia with my sandals. And I freaking forgot that you know, it's COLD here in Australia already. Funny though, I came back wearing a tube black&grey strippey ~~jumpsuit dress~~ that doesn't even reach my freaking knee (meaning: my legs were exposed), along with my white sandals and my grey cardigan... I forgot that it was cold like I said, I was freezing @ the freaking AIRPORT! Mum didn't even bring me a jumper but I survived yee? Anyway enough of that crap, how was your day? Random.

Confusion again?!

There's so much I want.

On one side I want this, on the other I want that. It's really annoying to be stuck between two things you love the most.

I don't know what I want. Can anyone tell me what I was like before all these confusion came?

Before someone made me feel so worthless.

Before someone made me feel so bad about everything I do.

Before everything got too messed up.

Can anyone remind me who I was?! T.T

I miss a lot of people.

For starters I miss winglin and my readers. Nowadays, everyone is so busy and can't even get in contact anymore. I'm not saying it is their fault but it would be really nice if they could drop by once in awhile just to say 'Hi' you know.

I miss my dongsaengs/unnies.

They have always been so good to me whenever I felt like things wasn't going my way. They are great people, and I know they will always be around; I just need to catch them on time :P

And a whole lot more so I won't blab on.

RANDOM FACT 4 TODAY : Two Songs that inspired me once again today : Breakeven & The Man Who Can't Be Moved - The Script. Beautiful songs..

Question: Can anyone guess why I have been smiling for the whole day!?

♥ Gee 27th.June.2o1o

these four walls.

2010-06-26T23:20:00.007+10:00

&& you say that you're sorry, now that I'm leaving. But I gotta let you go.

FIRST AND FOREMOST, BEFORE I RAMBLE ABOUT SOME NONSENSE ONCE AGAIN... I JUST SAW A PICTURE OF FLIPPIN' JAY PARK !!!! HOW LONG HAS IT BEEN SINCE I PERV ON HIM?! HAHA, Okay I think that came out soo weird and freaky but wtf right?! BUT LATEST VIEW OF HIS SEXYY BODYY!!! SEXY BEYOND EXPLANATION...

JAY PARK STILL AS SEXY AS EVER ;)

Now for those who disagrees, there's this button on top of your browser and if I am not mistaken it's the letter 'X' ; hit that and don't come back ;))

*stops fan-girling*

Anyways...

I didn't work today, working again on Tuesday then the next day and the next and so on. So what I did for the whole day? I SLEPT! HAHA, I felt so bad for not going my friends house. I said yes last night then woke up this morning and didn't go. I was too tired, I really was. My legs were killing me so badly so I'm sorry Arianne, you still my sister. We'll catch up real soon & talk about your date.

So for a few days I feel like my whole world were going to collapse right before me. Don't you hate it when someone makes mistakes/decisions and when you tell them that what they are doing is wrong they blame everything to you. They pin you down for something you didn't do. Well I have a person in my life who does that and it pisses me off yet I can't find it in my heart to tell that person to get the hell away from me & forget about everything we shared or still sharing. But anyway, this person makes all these ridiculous decisions and I called them for it and this person blames everything on me, making me look like I'm the bad guy. It pisses me off, it really does.

So this person makes me feel so worthless, so inferior and so not worth loving.

These few days I've been feeling like that but I found peace in these four walls;

My bestfriend. Dawn Marie Salvador; She and I have been through so much together. When I first left the Philippines, I remember losing contact with her. I would write letters to her and she would reply to them but we can only do that if my mum was flying to the Philippines but anyways thanks to the 'INTERNET' & 'FRIENDSTER' our communication got easier. But for these past few days that I feel like stopping time and just be at peace, she pulled me through. She is one of the bestest friend I have, we've been best friends since who knows when. We're too alike, I think that's why we're still best friends. She's been really great these past few days. She's been reminding me how much I mean to her and that I am not worthless at all. It really is a blessing to have her.
My Evil Twin. Steven; Where do I start you weird kid? This boy is no stranger to me. He's probably the strongest wall out of these four walls. He's one of the reason why I'm still sane and fighting through. He's overprotective I gotta admit but he does a great job when it comes to calming my soul down. He's one of those people who comes to you when you need him. He always shows me that there is always hope even for people like me, like you know the ones feeling worthless. Steven makes me feel special, he really does & I love him for everything he is doing in my life.
My Bunso. TAM; She reminds me everyday that there is so much more to life than just heartbreak. She keeps me together too. She never fails to make me smile and laugh when I need it the most. She takes care of me like she's older sometimes, but I love her in every way. She's just amazing inside and out... I find peace and clarity whenever I talk to her about my problems or anything that's bothering me... I love her to bits.
MY MUSIC ; Last, my music. Whenever I'm feeling down I would plug my earphones in my ear and just let my iTouch play through all my playlist. There's a playlist for almost every emotion that I mainly feel. There's the playlist to release all the tears that is too stubborn to come out a.k.a my SAD playlist. Then my MOTIVATIONAL playlist. Then my HAPPY playlist and my RANDOM playlist which basically has all the songs that I need whenever life treats me better than GOOD.

These four walls keeps me sane and going. I love them for always being there for me. They are the only ones who does not judge me or hates me when I get too emo (lol?). But they really do keep me together, and I am always thankful.

But...

My main strength.

My main wall.

My main best friend.

My main everything would be GOD!

He is always there for me, lending me a hand every step of the way. And I wouldn't be here or I wouldn't be surrounded by wonderful people if it wasn't for him. So I thank the big man above for taking such good care of me. And I know he's giving me these challenges to keep me going and stronger along the way... Thank you.

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RANDOM FACT FOR TODAY : My obsession for BOW WOW is back haha. Now for those who don't know who BOW WOW is; I have one advice for you -- GOOGLE!!!! He's my all time favourite rapper. Especially back when he was still little and so cute. xD

"Koz Imma be BOW WOW

You know my name,

One day Imma be in the hall of fame,

All you girls stand in line koz one ya'll cutie pie just might be mine..."

Anyways I'm off yee? Hungry... craving for some bacon and eggs.

♥ Gee | 26th.June.2o10

I worked.

2010-06-25T21:07:00.004+10:00

&& a bottle of water + cookies + Twinnie + TAM + soundtrip = Ultimate Peace & Clarity.

Hi there.

First of all I am tired. So how’s everyone been ayes?
Well today I had my first official shift @ my work. I worked for 5hours straight and I must say it wasn’t as easy as it looked. Level 3, Subway was too busy because it was right at the food court. I was working with two of my old mates. We use to go to school together and who knew we’d be working together. It’s good to be honest because they get to train me and teach me things. I learnt a lot today and I served a lot of people too. It was really fun, who knew it’d be so much work though. For some people it’s like making sandwiches but I worked @ the back too anyways.
Well I have a break for 2days then working once again.

So I've been fiddling around with my songbook once again and I must say I've been quite happy with what I am writing. I found this song that I've written back in February, back in the days where I was confused and well, stuck in a place no girl or boy would like to be stuck in. But yes it was an experience I have written down in papers. HEY NO PLAGIARISM YEE?! I can sue you for this you know.... maybe I can I think?! haha But seriously, lay off my lyrics... These are mine, just in case I make it in the Music Industry hahahah. I'm making a fool of myself aren't I? But anyway the song is called "Here I Am (Stuck With You)" written on 16th February 2o1o ; I don't know, a few of you who have been tagged on FB already know about this and have already commented on it. But for those who haven't seen it, here it is.

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Title: © Here I Am (Stuck With You)
Written By: © Gee
Written On: 16th.Feb.2o1o

Here we are again,
Replaying the same episode as before.
My tears flowing, your back turning.
I asked: "Is this over?",
You smiled and walked away.

Did I hurt you again?
Was it something I said that made you turn away?
Is it hard to try again?
Boy I'm tired, but for you,
I'll be fighting... because

Chorus:

Here I am, stuck with you
Although it hurts, I'm holding on
Because I love you,
Here I am, Here I am, Here I am...
Stuck with you.

Verse 2

I stood by the corner shop,
Watching as you lock hands with her.
I closed my eyes, tears fell.
It hurts, but for you, I'll be fighting because...

Chorus:

Here I am, stuck with you
Although it hurts, I'm holding on
Because I love you,
Here I am, Here I am, Here I am...
Stuck with you.

Bridge

I know its time to go,
But somehow my heart just won't.
I'm sorry, I know I'm suppose to go,
But I can't leave.
Because of you... I'm here.

Chorus:

Here I am, stuck with you
Although it hurts, I'm holding on
Because I love you,
Here I am, Here I am, Here I am...
Stuck with you.

Okay so lemme know what you think yee? One thing you should know about this song, it needs MUSIC! Yes, I don't have any music for it T.T Anyone wanna give it a go? We'll be like that Music&Lyrics people haha.

Someone's playing the guitar next door. Maybe I'll ask that person? HAHA.

RANDOM FACT: A song that's really hitting my so badly right now is 'I Need This' by Chris Brown.

Talk to you all soon.

♥ Gee || 25th.June.2o1o

welcome back yee?

2010-06-22T13:07:00.006+10:00

&& forever I'll stay with you

Hi There!
How long has it been ? Damn, sorry I haven't been around to rant about stuff and and just be here to you know let you know I'm still alive. But I am, I'm still alive. I came back from my holiday for almost a month now... and I must say it was very R-E-F-R-E-S-H-I-N-G!! For a whole month I was worry free and was happy. It was really good that I got to spend a whole month with friends and my family. I got to see BORACAY too ;) It was madfun.

But anyways, I have a job now. Yes, I work hehe! Subway Restaurant ^^ . Being employed is such an amazing feeling haha. But it's true, I was excited when they called me up ya know. I felt like I wasn't a complete failure, for once in my life. Yes, sometimes I feel like a complete failure, that is why when I accomplish something it reminds me how much of a non-failure girl I am. See look at that sentence, I don't even think that's qualified enough to be called English haha. But anyway so right now I'm working and not studying. This whole year will be a break from all that studying but I will go back next year for sure. I'm enrolling this October for my subject so I'm not sure if that's like a whole week and stuff but whatever ayes. I'll think about it when it's like near and go crazy then.

So... When I was back at Phils I met new friends.

They made my stay a blast hehe. It was cool, but we hardly talk now because they are all busy with school and I'm busy with work ya know. They message here and there and I exchange e-mails every now and then but it's still different when you're next to them and actually exchanging words and laughing together. I just miss them so much.

HAHA, wanna know something cool? I met a guy name Steven through my friend TAM (she's a girl, that's her nickname). That's not the cool part, the cool part is that Steven is like a reflection of me in a boy's body. And it's true, him and I are too similar. Hehe, he is my twin now ^^. He's one cool dude but not as cool as TAM. She's the best lil sister ever :).

Anyways I best be off yea? Gonna try and finish my Ghost Love chapters. I'm so behind T.T This must be like the longest and hardest story to finish. I'm getting my motivations back to write since you know Jay and 2PM are like leaving everything behind now, I hope everyone else did too. I mean come on people its almost been a year and well both parties are happy now and doing their own thing. Stop the hating yee?

I'll see you all again soon.

♥ Gee | 22June2o1o

2nd.April.2O1O

2010-04-03T12:11:00.001+11:00

Good afternoon blogger,

I was suppose to post this yesterday night but failed because I was extremely exhausted. Well me and my youth met up to play soccer, hang out and connect. You know normal youth stuff but unfortunately my YOUTH group is beyond normal haha. We laugh at anything, and well we laugh @ anything. We met up @ around 4 or something, didn’t get to play ‘till who knows what time. We went down to the park, started playing soccer with the boys. I haven’t played soccer for like a long time. I stopped playing when I was like in Year 9 after the friend of mine left for another school. Him and his twin were the one’s who taught me how to play so after I never played anymore. So yeah anyways we played… Soccer was really fun, got owned by this boy who was like younger yet taller than me. And half of the other team was like standing in front of the goalie so its like 4 people are goalies. My team lost a few games because the other team was too good.

My friend Arianne was like not wearing proper shoes, it slipped off her mind that we were playing soccer so she wore flats. She tried kicking the ball and there was another person infront of her trying to kick the ball so when she kicked the ball her shoe flew to the other person’s face… HAHA it was mad funny. If you were there you would know. You see a couple of people collapsing in laughter haha.

Later on, a few more people more people came. It was getting dark so they asked for one more game of soccer. Basically I was on the same team as I was before. We had the best goal keeper ;). We were a bit loud so I think the people who was by the park were like disturbed by our loud-ness. But we didn’t care, everything was fun for us so why not be loud right? Anyway so I was chasing after the ball and then someone, I don’t know who, came and tried getting the ball but instead of kicking the ball he/she kicked my leg so hard. I’m guessing it was a boy because I don’t think the girls would kick that hard; there goes a bruise on my leg.Then after the kicking I headed for the goals but I failed… the goalie then kicked the ball and it hit me real hard on my chest. So basically my whole body is sore.

It was a blast.

I mean being able to share fun days like this with the right people is definitely priceless. It was one of those moments you will never exchange for anything else, it was one of those moments where you just feel like the whole world stopped and everything is just so right. That’s what it felt like to me. Seeing them smile, laugh and just have fun just made me the happiest. Not only that, I get to share what I love with them and they share the same love.

We all love GOD and that’s the most important thing I guess. Being with them is not only about fun but also being able to connect with GOD with them and through them.

GOD really did bless me with so much people who truly cares and who loves me no matter what I do or will be doing. I really am greatful for everything and everyone who are apart of who I am. I don’t think there’s anything better than being blessed with loving families and friends.

A shoutout to my friends from all over the world, I love you all just the same :)

God bless ya’ll. Love you all …

♥ Gee | 3rd.April.2O1O

hang out .

2010-03-27T00:24:00.009+11:00

HELLO !
Damn I really need to change this layout, its hard to read my updates and shiz. But I'll never forget this layout. I might screen-cap every layout I get from now on, so i remember from which month to which month my layouts are. I don't think that sentence made sense anywhere LOL.

So its 12:30AM. I'll be staying up 'till morning to do some writing. I am so far behind with my writing and I think my readers forgot about my stories now. I should be more active nowadays but I get so busy.

Yesterday I had a blast @ my mates house. We shop`ed for food first, I got my smoothies of course. Me and a friend counted coins in front of subway so I can get my smoothies hahaha. For those who does not know lately I have been craving different food. Started with Chicken then choc-chip cookies (thanks to StepRoc), then moved on to another food then now smoothies... Anyways we ended up buying two packets of cookies with Mars (Mars is an Australian Chocolate I think), a tray of lasagna, a whole pizza and two packet of chips. Yes, we were that hungry haha. After the shops we walked to my friends house, I really did miss walking and laughing while teasing each other on the road. I miss them all, I think these friends are there for me to treasure and I so love them. HAHA I'm getting all mushy. Anywayy...

We walked to her Erica's house. As soon as we got there we put the food in the oven, well we pre-heated the oven first of course. And then we played Wii. First game was 'Mario Kart' and oh my life I can never beat Erica she pwned me, Rachel and Myau badly. HAHA she was pro, like seriously... PRO! So yeah anyway after awhile we realised that our pizza was well... cooked. A little too cooked hahaha. It was eatable though and it was nice, Hawaiian pizza. Then we waited for the lasagna and to kill time we played again. 20 minutes later, it was time for us to eat. SKIPS the boring part.

So after eating we decided to play some Indo game and we failed that in a very happy way, LOL. So we decided to play some other confusing game. Didn't last so we decided to play a board game and the only board game Erica had was twilight. Fun Fun Fun ! LOL we started playing it and halfway through the game we realised we were playing it wrong. HAHA, but we didn't stop; we just continued. HAHA Apparently I was a cheater because I know the book inside and out... I realised with that game that I didn't. I didn't even remember what year Edward turned into a vampire.

Anyways I'll see you all soon.

♥ Gee

Searching....

2010-03-24T23:11:00.003+11:00

Hi.
I know I haven't been here for like who knows how long... But I'm here now. I've been really busy. I'm heading to the Philippines in exactly a month and oh my life isn't that a hassle? Also I've been busy with a lot of other things, I'm so scared when I go back to school. What will happen to my commitments and shiz? But I know I can pull through everything, I mean a lot of people out there believes in me. I should just cheer up and face life like I keep telling people to.

Anyway, I've been wanting to blog about this for awhile now. I find it so cute how everyone around me is finding their love, true love. I know some people I know found their true love already and I'm really happy for them. And as for me, I'm searching for mine. I think when he comes my way I'll say to myself "He was worth the wait". I know I was a bit rush back in the days and looking back now, I know I should have kept myself together and stayed single but I don't think I should regret, its a lesson learned.

True love will come my way and when it does, I'll embrace it. I'll never let go but here's a message to that boy who will sweep me off my feet and take my breath away every single day of my life.

- Dear Mr. Anonymous,

I might sound like a complete idiot writing this right now but when the day comes, I'll make you read this and be like "that message was for you". I thank you in advance for all the new things you will be bringing into my life. For all the laughter and all the tears you will share with me. I know GOD has so much plans for me and one of them is you. I'll definitely find you and when I do, I'll never let you go... I promise to keep you safe like you'll keep me safe. I'll love you twice as much as you will love me. In the meantime let's be patient and when the time comes we'll see through anything and go through everything together. Okay? I'll see you soon... I hope.

Love of my life, my soulmate; You're my bestfriend. ♥

♥ Gee

They overdose me.

2010-03-17T00:08:00.005+11:00

HI there!
Its currently 12:16AM and I just can't help myself. I thought I'd blog about all the wonderful things that happened to me yesterday. Well first of all, I FOUND OUT the answer to a question I have been asking about. And TADA I am so happy, thanks to LAURA the noob, the noob whom I truly love. Second of all I had the Chicken I have been craving for ever since a couple nights ago... I had it for dinner yesterday... Third of all, GD BABY IS CLEARED ! They should have cleared him a long long time ago but no they just had to drag on about. And most and foremost, the DRUG that I haven't take for almost 7 months. He finally came back... I LOVE JAY PARK! Where is BoBo and GDBABYISM when this thing happened? Well they are on a vacation or study thing but they will come back soon and see this...

JAY PARK - Nothing On You.

My last post was about this song and now TADA Jay covers it too. Isn't it so good to see him smile again? I mean look at him, he looks so happy and jjang ! LOL, I loved it when he lifted his shirt though; now that was yummy... ^^ Anyways, thought I'd share my blessings to all of you. I love MARCH officially. Unless someone comes along and ruins it, which I pray to GOD won't happen. OOoO Before I forget, Remember that bboy I blabbed about a few post ago? Well he reached his 5000 subscribers on YT and I am happy for him because I adore him so much. So, let's check out his gift to his subscribers which includes me...

Daniel Jerome - StepRoc

He is just love...

They overdose me in a good way. Like a drug that's so addictive :)

But I'm glad to have my happy mood back. I hope you're happy too. ^^

♥ Gee

The feeling.

2010-03-16T00:06:00.003+11:00

Okay so like where have I been?
Here I am and I just want to share something to you all. I fell in love with these boys voices and I love it... It makes me excited for CHACHA's video now. HAHA.

Also if you are reading this and you love me, please help me. All you have to do is;

Text : MGP42T to +49 177 178 1208

Please PLEASE HELP ME! It's for my friend ChaCha.
He can get a chance to record with RYAN LESLIE!
So please vote for him. One vote per mobile.

Thank you ^^ ; visit this site to see his submission; HE HAS SICK BEATS :)

http://www.talenthouse.com/creativeinvites/show/submission/detail/MGP42T

♥ Gee

Defeated.

2010-03-13T01:36:00.000+11:00

D E F E A T E D

Enough said.

♥ Gee

Bboys stole my heart...

2010-03-11T11:07:00.006+11:00

Hey there. Thought I'd share a couple thoughts on here, since that's what my blog's all about right? Well this morning @ 12, I signed up for a tumblr account. I was WIDE awake when I signed up for it but you know what happened this morning? It said that I cannot access the account because my e-mail wasn't registered. So I tried all my other e-mails but failed. So I had no choice but make another account, so whatever happens to the other one ... I have no idea T^T . But yes if you interested in following me on tumblr here's the link ; http://jztgee.tumblr.com .

Not why I'm here but thought I'd blab.

BBoys stole my heart away.

Here's the thing... Have you ever watched someone dance and that someone leaves you in tears? Happened to me a couple of times. Some they just touch my heart and leaves a mark, but others makes an impact. And thats what Art of Movement did to me, they did not just touch my heart and leave a mark; they impacted the whole me. It's hard to explain when you haven't felt anything like it. I've watched tons of videos of them dancing and some of them I repeat over and over again and still the same thing happens... I fall in love. These boys holds my heart in many ways they will never understand. I was watching the videos for 'Breaking for Haiti' and this guy called StepRoc who is 18 years old, did this one move that made me cry because he was that good. He started bboying in 2004 and he's 18 for flippin' sake, I haven't seen many 18 year old boys do what he did.

In every performance they do, they give their all; they give their best. But at the same time they do not forget that they are having fun. That's what I love about them.

So many hip hop dancers stole my heart away and I never thought bboy's would. Seriously, it's BBOYS. My brother's a bboy and I get annoyed with him before whenever he's doing the 6-Step and doing his baby freeze. I was jealous kekeke. But Art of Movement changed all of it, they really did stole my heart away. It's awesome that way.

But yes, I love bboys. I wish I had the same versatility and flexibility as them but unfortunately this girl doesn't. LOL, Thought I'd blab about them here.

ART OF MOVEMENT FOR THE WIN.

Seattle wait for me!

♥ Gee

Busy. Busy. Busy

2010-03-10T10:46:00.003+11:00

WOW hello, it's been awhile - hasn't it? So anyways I've been busy... too busy to even have time for myself. A couple of hours maybe. I've been busy with a lot of things... things like; CODING! Yes I'm starting to code again, it's pretty cool. LOL I still suck but I'm getting there I guess. So what else? Oh yeah I've been searching for a place where I can get a book printed. I'm planning to get one of my stories printed so yeah, kind of excited. Going to finish the story first before everything else happens.

I'm waiting for designs from my sister in law for the ART OF MOVEMENT t-shirt and its all exciting stuff but she's too slow HAHA. Nah kiddings, she's just having a tough time lately. But anyways when the designs are ready I will let you know :)

So I'm starting a new story which will NOT be posted on the internet. It'll be a story that I want to keep myself and maybe also print out. It's going to be short but meaningful (I really hope) . But just a few things about this story... It's about a boy who had nothing to look forward to in life besides being in the spotlight. His dreams were all about dancing, and being on top... until he meets a girl being diagnosed with leukemia. The boy starts to learn that there is so much more in life than just dancing. The story will be titled "Last Dance" ; suggested by my good friend Laura title's inspired by Cha Cha's soon to be released song ... Last Dance. It's going to be awesome fun.

Next month I'm flying back to the Philippines for a month holiday then come back to study again. Isn't it fun? I'm going to be a Childcare person thing LMAO. I was also thinking once I finish my childcare course I might go for literature and stuff, but I'll have to see. I really want to make my writing work you know. But yes anyways I'm off for now, hungry to the days. Tc

♥ Gee

♥ Jzt BLAB!

2010-03-07T19:50:00.007+11:00

Oh my life. Time to blab right? How long has it been since I last blabbed here, not that long I know ;) Well anyway if you ask me I have been terrifically amazing (is there a word such as that?) But yes its been terrific. I had a fever couple days ago or was it yesterday, haha either way I was sick. I sort of like you know stayed in the rain when I shouldn't have. Not that I have a choice anyway, I had to walk home and it rained when I got off the bus. Running would have never helped because I was afraid of slipping, I was wearing a white t-shirt-dress that day and was scared it would get dirty. Someone took the umbrella out of my bag and benefited by using my umbrella (not that I have a problem with it) but we all have our own umbrellas and I don't know where their umbrella disappeared to T^T.

LOL how's that for a story?

Nah just kidding. Anyway there's this T-shirt I bought the other day, oh my life I fell in love with it the moment I saw it. It was so cute and well it goes out to all the haters...

HAHA, how do you like them prints? I was just in love with it.

What else is new? Oh yeah, I released the official t-shirt for AOM fans. LMAO. Want to see? There's black and white, which one is better?

I was rooting for the white but then I stared at the black then the black one just captured my heart bwhaahaha. Anyways lovelies, make sure you stay tune for more of me HAHA. Rae, I know you tagged me but CBB to do anything right now ==" I'll do when I'm bored and bothered. My formspring is dead, ask me anything @ http://formspring.me/GeeisVIPx3 ; Ask me anything my dears ;)

♥ Gee

Happiest.

2010-03-04T13:59:00.006+11:00

Hello there lovelies. Do you know what the date is today?
TODAY IS THE DAY I WILL NEVER FORGET.
I must be the luckiest and happiest girl alive right now. As many of you know, I have opened a blogspot called "AOM.TJP" our objective is to expand our love to all the AOM members for taking care of our Jay, for those who does not know what I am on about, AOM is the abbreviation of Jay's bboy crew in Seattle, Washington. Art of Movement Crew is what they are called. An active member of AOM, ChaCha, is not only a bboy but a kid who produces and writes his own musics. He is such a lovely guy.

I have been trying to reach out to him about AOM.TJP and today my prayers have been heard. Due to someone bashing him on YOUTUBE, I, as a fan of his had to step in. Yes, I involve myself in things I shouldn't be involved with. But I just couldn't sit there and read hateful comments towards a wonderful guy like him. I am not going to post the comment the person made but to summarize what he said and how I understood what he was saying... he's basically trying to say that ChaCha is now popular because of all the issue that has been going on. This person is making it seem like ChaCha is using Jay to be on the top and this pissed me off really bad because for me that is not true. Maybe for some people they are there because of Jay but for me I was hurt with what this person said. So being the Gee, I am; I commented ChaCha.

I think you can click on the picture better to see what I wrote. I didn't expect him to reply to this comment of mine, I really didn't. I was expecting him to reply to my other messages but this message reached him and GOD answered my prayer...

He is such a wonderful man and I was glad that my message reached him. It's really sad how some people think that because he is Jay's friend, we are all going to cling on him. If you listen to his music, of course you'd fall in love the way I did. His lyrics touched my soul and everytime I listen to it the more my heart heals. He also answered my questions so I am pretty happy about it. So now AOM.TJP is even stronger because he dropped by our page... Want proof?

Yes I screencapped it :) And he did call me Gee hehe. Anyways Jay is okay according to him, he's going to be alright I know it. For now let's just let it go, let him go. We owe it to him for all the times he made us smile and made us happy, it's time to make him happy and set him free. We all know he's clean and innocent. We'll never forget him :)

OH MY LIFE! On another note. BEAST jaKKRHAKFAKSAVBCBBVHSB gosh I don't even know what to say.... SHOCK was yummy :) hehehe Anyways I'm off take good care and I missed you all.

♥ Gee

Mutual.

2010-03-02T12:15:00.002+11:00

Just to make this loud and clear.
For those who are questioning where I stand towards the boys. Here is where I stand okays. I am no longer a HOTTEST but that doesn't mean I am an anti. I have done some thinking about this and was leaning towards being an anti but didn't. I looked over stuff I had about 2PM and I must say, I went crazy for them just like any of you HOTTEST are there. But like I said, I wanted the brotherhood with those boys. I realised that I fought for them because I believed in them but after everything they couldn't save Jay. But I am not angry because of that, I'm just not sure I'm complete with just 10 boys.

I AM NOT AGAINST THE BOYS nor will I bash them.

I will not be a HOTTEST also. I am mutual because I love 2AM and nothing can change that. I still love my WOOYOUNG AND KHUN! I am standing by these two boys forever and for the others I am not hating... just disappointed I guess.

But I'm mutual about the situation.

So please stop bashing TEAMJAYPARK. Just koz the name is for JAY doesn't mean we are against 2PM ; we stand to support Jay and AOM thats all... So please don't get us mixed up with those who are antis.

♥ Gee

Goodbye 2PM.

2010-02-28T14:25:00.005+11:00

This will be the post I will have regarding 2PM (6 membered group), from today onwards I will not be a HOTTEST! Not because Jay officially withdrew and has no chance of coming back but because I believed in the brotherhood these boys had. the love and the passion they all shared but after yesterday's conference; my blood pressure did went high. Like I said, I am not quitting on being a HOTTEST because Jay left.. I'm calling it quits because the group that I have been rooting for, is no longer there. The love is no longer there, the heart that use to beat as one is gone... I guess I should have expected it right?

Disgusted.

Hatred.

Disappointment.

Betrayal.

Lies & deceit.

That's how I feel and how I would describe everything that happened. I won't waste so much time on this post so I'm going to make it quick.

I loved 2PM..

The one where ALL the members mattered no matter what.

Scripted or not, they didn't have the rights to backstab and just trampled on Jay just like that. He too is a person who has feelings and a heart. Damn those who let him go so quickly.

From now on, 2PM is no longer on my rooting list.

I'll be a VIP alone...

Don't get me wrong, I still love WOOYOUNG AND KHUN!

Goodbye 2PM... HELLO FREE WORLD :)

♥ Gee

Tired.

2010-02-27T21:03:00.003+11:00

I never thought I would be but I am.

Everything right now is taking all my energy away. The life in me is being sucked out just like I always talked about in my stories. There's so much to say but don't know where to start. There's so much to cry for but don't know how to start and when it does start, don't know when to stop.

The conference started 4 hours ago and I can't talk about what is happening because I do not have the permission from 2ONEDAY. I'm getting anxious and I'm scared of what's happening in that place right now. I wish I was there to actually see what's going on. But yes the wait is killing the crap out of me.

But yes I am tired.

I never knew this would affect me this much but it does. But then again, I did cry when he left Korea you know. I'm just worried about three of my lovely girls, they just won't talk to me. Well, they do but I want to hear how they are actually feeling. I swear if I had money, I would have bought a phonecard already and called them but unfortunately I'm broke this week and won't get money 'till next week. I just really hope they are okay... They must be weary just like me.

It sucks though.

Today is GDBABYISM's birthday and she can't celebrate it with a smile and we all know why.

I don't know what else to say besides...

I'M TIRED. EXHAUSTED
but for JAY & the 10 boys

I'M GOING TO BE STRONG AND FIGHT FOR THEM!

itsaconspiracy.b*tch!

♥ Gee

Itsaconspiracy.

2010-02-27T00:08:00.011+11:00

Back with round two.
First of all to JTOASN thanks for pulling off my DARK layout. I really am in love with it, it's beautiful. Second of all this post goes out to all ya'll netizens & "hottests", I'm pissed off my mind so bash me if you want; I have nothing to lose.

Wow NETIZENS, is that the best you can come up with? Drug abuse? Having a girl pregnant? Come on, you have to do better than that because we all know that during AAA promotions Jay was glued to the other members 24/7. He didn't have time to go and have a one-night stand with someone to get them pregnant. And if you think he did it in SEATTLE I think you're dumber than I thought. He goes to SEATTLE to visit his family and friends, not walk around and screw the next girls he sees. Drug abuse? That's the stupidest thing I have ever heard. For starters I don't think Jay had that much money to purchase MARIJUANA, like you all accused him of using. Second of all I don't think his manager would just let him out of his sight just like that so meaning, he didn't have time to buy it and third... JAY RESPECTS HIS PARENTS WAY TOO MUCH TO USE DRUGS, HAVE YOU LOST THE SCREWS IN YOUR HEADS? If you're going to come up with a theory, make sure it suits Jay just right. And for the record, he went to JYP because his mum asked him to, so I don't think he'll do something stupid that would hurt his mum.

"HOTTESTS" first question I want to ask, Why did you become a hottest? The last time I checked 2PM had 7 members and called their fans HOTTEST. Okay so Jay's gone, that doesn't mean we should neglect the other members. They build 2PM too, they worked as hard as Jay. And for those who believed that the other members betrayed Jay, all I could say is; what kind of a HOTTEST are you? We're meant to be all about love&respect... meaning we love those who are there and even those who are not there and respect every decision they make. Jay decided to leave 5 months ago, yes it hurts and it hurts even more now but that doesn't mean he wanted 2PM'S fans to turn their backs on the remaining 6. THEY ARE 2PM! I know it will never be the same but don't think that by supporting them you are betraying Jay, in fact you'll be making Jay happy.

Jay loves his brothers.

Seeing them happy can satisfy him in ways we could never understand.

We're currently fighting wrongly. We should be fighting not only for Jay but also the 6 members.

Like I said it will never be the same but there is no use of us giving up on them because just like us sometimes all they need is people who believes in them and who supports them no matter what happens.

They need us to be there for them.

Do not call yourself a HOTTEST, if you do not respect the boys and Jay's decision.

We should be happy that he's happy and he's doing what he loves to do.

I'm going to be honest here just like I always do. I want Jay to stay away from Korea for as long as he wants. People had been throwing so much towards him, he's human too... He gets tired and he gets enough. I want him to be happy and to show JYPE that he doesn't need them to succeed. All he needs is his friends, family and us who believes and truly loves him...

Think about it.

HOTTEST do consist of 7.

7 people captured our hearts.

7 Brothers.

One Desire.

One Passion.

One Dream.

And One Heart.

Always remember that those 7 are one. If one is wounded the rest our too, so they need us to mend their broken hearts not make it worst... Goodnight.

Somewhere along your dark path, comes a light that will save you. ♥ Love you Jay

♥ Gee || 27th.FEB.2O1O

박재범

2010-02-26T10:03:00.016+11:00

Hi bloggers.
Sorry if like I say something stupid or really inappropriate in the next paragraph or sentences. I'm not feeling, my eyes are gone and my voice is going too. WORST BLOODY DAY! I'm sure all of you already know what the heck happened last night. I mean its all over the internet right... 2PM NO LONGER HAVE A LEADER! Yes you read it right, 2PM no longer has a leader.

It was announced yesterday that JYP terminated the contract with Jaebeom due to some misbehaviour Jay did during the AAA promotions... What was it? I have no idea, that's what I've been trying to ask.

I know I said I'll be happy with whatever Jay decides to do but it's just hard to take it all in right now. I mean I fought along the HOTTEST for 5 months straight. I kept hoping and hoping for a miracle. Stayed late at night trying to trend him to come back, watched Wild Bunny over and over again hoping that when I wake up the next morning he'll be there again, ready to release episode 8. But reality has a way of catching up to you and it caught up to me too. It's hard being in this position, I know many of you are hurting (that won't even demonstrate how I feel) but always know that "if there's a will, there's a way"

“When one door closes another door opens; But we so often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door, that we do not see the ones which is open for us.”
- Alexander Graham Bell

I don't want Jay to be one of those people who looks back on the closed doors and regrets it all. I want him to be one of those people who looks forward to the open door. Jay was born for greatness, we all are for that matters but if we keep looking back on closed doors we won't be great like GOD has planned us to be. We'll be nothing but people who looks back and regret, I definitely want Jay to live his new life with nothing but happiness.

Jay wasn't just a leader I looked up to. He was this guy I liked dreamed of, not as much as I dreamed of GD but anyway... He was this simple guy who was never afraid to be himself. And what makes me fall in love with him even more is that, just like us, he is not PERFECT! But the difference between him and other people is he faces the music even though he doesn't like how its going to end. For all the time I was in love with Jay, I only regret one thing... How come I never listened to 2PM? STUPID 10 POINTS OUT OF 10!!! I never liked that song by the way. I hated it thats why I never listened to them but I liked who was in 2PM.

You all know I have a thing for leaders... like I said I look up to them. The hard work they put in whenever practice time comes, the leadership they show whenever they are standing on stage and the love they give to their fellow member... All those are admirable. I admire Jay for the man he is and for everything he did along with his 2PM brothers. To be honest, I don't know what 2PM is going to be like in the future, I'd always know that there's an empty spot in that stage and in their hearts. It's not going to be the same anymore, right? You know it and I know it. Here's a statement that I want you all to know and I'm not hating on the boys but this is what my heart wants and will do;

"The moment they stop leaving an empty spot for Jay will be the moment
I'd stop being a HOTTEST"

I'm being a honest.

I became a HOTTEST because of the 7 membered 2PM. Not because of 01:59.

It's going to be hard getting over this because everywhere I look in my room, Jay's there. How? The quotes written on my computer table are all for Jay or related to Jay. There's a massive poster stuck on my wall with Jay in the middle from AAA. The same with my computer background, its the same thing.

I don't want to drag on and on about the same thing. I just want to let you all know that I'm going to be fine. If Jay is happy then what the heck why wouldn't I be? I should be supporting him to do what he loves to do, he's a b-boy dancer so why shouldn't I be happy? He's a strong man, he'll live and I'll be on the sideline cheering him on...

Be happy Park Jaebeom, be the man you've always wanted to be. Smile for those who makes you smile. Be strong for yourself and for who you love. Protect yourself from harm and if you can't we will be here to shield you from it all. Boy, you are one hell of leadja... I love you and always will. Take good care and show JYP that you don't need him to be successful.

A message I wrote to AOM's Fan page;

Dearest AOM: Please do your best to help Jay get through this. I apologise for flooding your page like this, to be honest I don't know where else to reach Jay. You all are still his brothers so please hold him with both your hands because now you hold one of our treasured gifts. To Jay: Hey Swagger, hope you're doing a...ll good. If you're happy I'd be happy too. Just always remember our arms are still widely open for 2PM'S one and only LEADJA. SOLDIER ON! i'M DEFINITELY GONNA MISS YOU. Shine like you've never shine before. Love you JAY AND ALL MY LOVE TO AOM! ♥

I'll end it with this quote:

"Just like music, Jaebum is a DRUG that's hard to resist. I'd feel weak without him"

♥ Gee || 26th.FEB.2O1O

LOVE&RESPECT! Jay Park FTW!

Inspire me.

2010-02-25T12:48:00.005+11:00

Hi readers.

Looks like everyone enjoyed my whole opening of "Open Book Expressions" ; did you read all the new updates for Ghost Love? I hope you all did. So the "Completed" one's will take forever to be linked because there are chapters I didn't write on my computer but straight from the site so I hope you don't mind waiting. The only one that would be updated quickly will be "Somewhere In Between" But I'm just not bothered right now. Anyways why am I updating that here? I'll move this later to the other blog.

Do you like the picture at the top? I like it.

I was bored and was surrounded by a wall of depressions.

When I say wall of depressions, quotes I wrote whenever I was feeling a bit sad.

But one questions before I go and study HANGUL again...

Will you be the one to inspire me?

♥ Gee || 25TH FEB. 2010

I opened it/ENCHONG DEE

2010-02-24T12:22:00.005+11:00

Hello.
Just a quick update for this afternoon. I have opened my newest blog for my fan-fictions. To all 'Ghost Love' new chapters are up. Because I don't know which chapter I posted the review I didn't post it, so new chapter is Chapter 27, Chapter 28 & Chapter 29 :) Anyways the link for the new site for my fan-fiction is 'OPEN BOOK EXPRESSIONS' visit and leave me some messages and comment the newest chapter...

This post will be edited later on tonight, I'll blog about something/someone kekekeke. :)

Edit;

Hello there again blogger. It's currently 8:24PM and time for me to flood this thing with my filo addiction. Yes people I do not only you know KPOP, I also am filo and I adore other people from the Filipino business too. So anyways I've got my eyes on this wonderful swimmer (I wish I can actually watch him swim) but yes he is wonderful and if it was possible I would have met him already. I just hope when I go to the Philippines my dreams come true.

But anyways his name is Enchong Dee. And he is dramatically cute, lmao I'm fan-girling but here are some photos and his bio that I would love to share with you awesome followers/readers/visitors and to all the Filo's that would be reading this HE IS SO NOT GAY!!! He's just a passionate, caring and loving guy. If you're boyfriend is like that does that mean he's gay? No right? So leave him alone before WW3 starts ^^ I'm still being nice so please just back off and if I see you badmouthing him on my cbox, I will hunt you down hahaha I sound evil but I'm not, I just think he doesn't deserve any of your accusations.

Bio:

Ernest Lorenzo “Enchong” Dee, born November 5, 1989, is a Filipino actor, model, heartthrob and champion swimmer.

Dee’s first TV appearance came in 2006 when he appeared in a popular Philippine talk show Homeboy as one of the guests. He caught the eye of a modeling agency and advertisers and soon he appeared in several big campaigns including Bench, KFC and Timex.

Dee’s promising career took off when he landed several acting roles in 2007 up to present time such as “Sineserye”, “Komiks: Pedro Penduko at ang mga Engkantao”, “Abt Ur Luv” book 1 & 2, “My Girl” and “Your Song Presents: My Only Hope”. He will soon star in “Maruja” and “Ikaw Lamang”.

Aside from his acting and modeling career, Dee is also part of the Philippine national swim team and has participated in the SEA Games and 2006 Asian Games. He has won over 400 medals as a swimmer. After graduating from Naga Christian Hope School, one of the top high schools in Naga City, Camarines Sur, he further pursued his swimming career at De La Salle University in Manila.

HAHA you probably don't care but I don't care LOL. READ IT! Nah just kidding... I just thought I'd brag about this beautiful boy.

Cute or nah? LMAO I don't care what you say this boy is definitely fine in my eyes. HAHA I quote "My friend said he looks hot in water" I close quote. My friend said that to me when she found out I was head over heels in like with this guy... He's only 21 ;) A girl can dream you know anyways I'm off my dears... I don't know what I'll do after this but I'm off. Take good care :)

♥ Gee

Untitled...

2010-02-23T09:49:00.005+11:00

Oh my how many days did I missed out on blogging?
Miane, blog. But anyways I've read from my reader *cough*BoBo*cough* that she wants me to post Ghost Love here and because I love her too much I am now contemplating on making a new blog just for my FanFics, I already have this idea on my mind on how that would work. I just need to request from Chazz-Unnie a layout for it. But it's not decided yet, I'm still contemplating... Since I've got completed stories and On-Going it's going to be a lot of copy and Pasting. But when all else fails, I'll definitely post Ghost Love here just for BoBo and jbunny and my other readers who wouldn't know where to read it LOL.

I'm so angry right now.

YOUTUBE won't let me upload my new cover T^T but once I upload it this post will be edited. So I won't brag so much right now, I'll see you later and take good care...

Ask me any questions @ http://formspring.me/GeeisVIPx3 ; Keep it G-Rated Homies ;)

Edited ::

When I Fall [Cover] - After School

Lyrics Written by: Gee (Me)
After School Cover - When I Fall
19th February 2010 :)

It started when,
When you smiled and took my breath away.
I never knew, just how crazy I'd be about you.
You're all I need, here in my life, oh yes it's you
I'll smile for you, and only you.

I will be there for you,
When everything is just so hard.
I will wait for you,
Because you're all that I need.

When I fall,
It will always be with you.
'Cause when I fall,
It'll be one true love
You make my knees weak and I stutter with one smile from you,
That's why, I'm falling in love with you. (oh~oh~oh~oh~oh~oh~)

And then we talked,
I'm in heaven, your voice takes me high.
My dreams comes true, I was happy it's all I needed.
Boy pinch me please, tell me tell me tell me that this is so real.
I wanna call you ma boo, ma boo.

I will be there for you,
When everything is just so hard.
I will wait for you,
Because you're all that I need.

When I fall,
It will always be with you.
'Cause when I fall,
It'll be one true love
You make my knees weak and I stutter with one smile from you,
That's why, I'm falling in love with you.

Now all these dreams are coming so true, oh yeah
This heart of mine just open up again,
It's all because of all the love,
All the care you gave, just for me,
You made me who I am, saranghae,
I promise to be, the only one for you.
You're the only one I love. (You're the only one I love)

When I fall,
It will always be with you.
'Cause when I fall,
It'll be one true love
You make my knees weak and I stutter with one smile from you,
That's why, I'm falling in love with you.

Tell me what you think of the lyrics and if I improved at all LOL. I still suck @ writing lyrics so please do bear with me... I was pretty inspired when writing these lyrics, I was thinking of someone special to me. And also I wrote lyrics to "Sorry I can't smiled for you" by 2AM and I will be covering that too. YT hated me so it's taking awhile for me to upload videos and such. So I hope you enjoy this and a new section will be added to this blog. My lyrics sections ^^ and also I said I was going to edit my artworks I will do that tonights. Take good care again and see you soon ^^

♥ Gee

Changes

2010-02-19T22:38:00.009+11:00

I think I saw the title of this message from both BoBo and Lysel already.
But I want to talk about it too. I think this is like on my next chapter for Ghost Love I'm not sure, winglin just needs to hurry up so I post it. But anyways, what is the first thing that comes in your mind when you hear the word "Change". To be honest the first two thing that comes in my head is "Good or Bad?" We all expect good right but sometimes bad always happens, its part of us... bad things always happens but it doesn't mean we should be afraid of changes.

Changes allows us to grow and to explore. If we stay doing the same thing over and over again, we will never know what's out there. For example, if you are in a relationship with someone and you have no feelings for that someone anymore and you're only holding on because you've gotten so use to them being the one holding your hands, kissing you and saying I love you to you... don't you think it's unfair to still hold on? But because you've gotten so use to that person you're afraid that if you let go there's nothing more for you but let me tell you something... THERE'S ALWAYS SOMETHING FOR YOU.

Changes will hurt. But what's life without scars? How will you remember that you were in that position before if it won't hurt? Changes is both good and bad. When its bad you have the ability to make it to something good.

Look at me. I'm always afraid of changes.

Changes with friends.

Changes with music.

Changes with style.

Changes with the guy I like.

Changes with the way I'd walk, talk and laugh.

Changes of who I am now and will be in the future.

I'm afraid of it all.

I was afraid before whenever I would find new friends. It's like giving up those who made me who I was before. But because I moved schools, I had to make new friends yet still keep those that supported me before. Transitioning from one world to another is hard; it's like you have to find a new identity just to fit in... but at the same time you want to stay the way you are because a part of you was formed by the laugh, smiles and love of those you had before. But having new friends isn't bad, it's good.

Changes with music? WOW, I rarely change musics but I get scared whenever I do. It's like once a new song is stuck in my head, I'd forget about the one's that help me through when times get rough. Music is my friend too. It's the drug in my system that calms me down whenever things gets tough. It's my way to escape all of it. Its the same with the rest, I'm always afraid.

But if there's no change, you'll be stuck walking the same speed in the same place... You won't move anywhere.

Don't be afraid of changes.

It'll make you stronger and it'll help you in the future.

Every single day we go through changes believe or not but just know that GOD has reasons to why we have to make changes. Be strong and face changes the same way you'll face a broken heart, a broken friendship and a stupid relationship... face it with a smile and a happy heart.

. . . . .

Am I too serious for an 18 year old girl? If I'm getting boring tell me, I would def change my posts :) But I guess this is good too inspires you young ones there *winkwink.nudgenudge*

Two new songs, just for you awesome people. I'm sorry if I make people cry but here's Part 2 of two of my fave songs. Part 2 of Lollipop and Part 2 of Waiting For You - Jay's Version (a reply sort of thing)

Waiting For You - Part 2 (Jay's Version)

January 13th, do you remember the day?
The day I came to this foreign land
The fact that I was alone was such a big wall
Where I went to find hope, there was no hope

There were only walls that trapped me in
I looked for light in a place that only gave me pain
A race for my dreams

Finally, it starts

Girl, I'm with you
I pray to be able to laugh by your side
I'm back to you, girl
We are ONEDAY, forever
A happy time that will never stop

The 7 stars were able to add wings to their dreams
I am not alone
I'm going to become the brightest star and light the world
I'm your super star

Girl, I'm with you
I pray to be able to laugh by your side
I'm back to you, girl
I'm sorry, I'll never leave again, I promise you

I lost my dreams to one mistake
But I will never give up
I'm 2PM's leadja
In order to fulfill that last minute in 2PM, I'll go back
I'm not afraid even if I'm alone
I have you guys walking behind my back
Let's walk together forever, HOTTEST
And my precious ONEDAY

Let's not spill any tears so we don't get hurt
I'll always be by your side
In this world, only lovely you & I

Girl, I'm with you
I pray to be able to laugh by your side
I'm back to you, girl
We are ONEDAY, forever
A happy time that will never stop

We can no longer be separated
Without you, I can't breathe
I'll be there forever
I hope that you'll be with me too

For always protecting me by my side, I love you
Girl, I'm with you
Just my one heart
I want to give it to you guys
Back to you, girl
ONEDAY forever
A happy time that will never stop

Produced by Min
Sung by Yejin
Rap by 'TrueChansung'
Video 'Jaebum, I 5 you'

Translation by hazyfiasco@2ONEDAY.COM

Lollipop Part 2 [Big Bang]

I love the beat for both songs. And of course I love GD's sexy rapping voice... He's doing a great job for our future, I just wish I could help me... PSCH I DREAM TOO MUCH but then again dreaming is free just don't get too sucked into it :) I love you all... Laters.

♥ Gee

War

2010-02-18T21:08:00.006+11:00

Hi there. I'm here again and I'm here to blog a song that captured my heart lately. It has been on repeat and every night I listen to it before I go to bed. The first time I heard it, it hurt me so bad. At first I never understood why this song meant a lot to me. I didn't know why this song hurts so much, I didn't have any explanation to why this song was my song for the month... then suddenly Jay came to mind. I miss this boy just as much as you all do but I don't want him back unless he's happy with that decision.

War Lyrics by Jay Sean ;;

I would march across the desert to defeat my enemy And I would lie here in the trenches with your picture next to me And when I told you it's forever, then it's how its gonna be Don't, won't let him just take the place of me (No..) Does he really know you like I know you, all the little things? Does he really love you, like I love you, how can he compete? If he makes me fight for you, die for you, would he do the same? This is turning into way more than a game..

Now it feels like soldiers in a war and none of us are backing down And I will show you victory is mine before we leave this battleground Cause he don't wanna leave, and I don't wanna go And I know just how this battle goes He don't wanna leave and I don't wanna fight this kind of war

You know he's not the man you think he is; he's hiding all his flaws So tell me what's the point of fighting? Because we'll all end up with scars But girl if that's what I must go through, then I'm not prepared to lose Cause I've already bled so much for you (No..)

Does he really know you like I know you, all the little things? Does he really love you, like I love you, how can he compete? If he makes me fight for you, I die for you, would he do the same? Baby this is turning into way more than a game.. Baby cause we're soldiers in a war and none of us are backing down And I will show you victory is mine before we leave this battleground Cause he don't wanna leave, and I don't wanna go And I know just how this battle goes He don't wanna leave and I don't wanna fight this kind of war (No, No..)

Getting kind of sick of this battle Wish I could take it back to when I had you I'm always thinking that I can have you, just let him have you It's getting kinda hard to convince you After all the shit that we've been through Why would you let all this happen? You gotta choice to make it stop It's already going too far..

Girl we're soldiers in a war and none of us are backing down And I will show you victory is mine before we leave this battleground Cause he don't wanna leave, and I don't wanna go And I know just how this battle goes He don't wanna leave and I don't wanna fight this kind of war Cause he don't wanna leave, and I don't wanna go And I know just how this battle goes He don't wanna leave and I don't wanna fight this kind of war..

The song is about fighting and how the narrator is not afraid to lose. It's all there if you read the lyrics. I'm not in love with Jay or anything like that, it's just that with this song I realised so much. A lot of people are giving up on him because they don't see any more chance but we've done so much to back down now. You can still support him by respecting what he wants but at the same time fight this battle that we have started.

This song hit me so bad and I didn't even know it until I started crying like an idiot. I sing this song in my head when I'm really upset and my iTOUCH dies. There's a line in the song that says; "So tell me what's the point of fighting? Because we'll all end up with scars" I thought about it myself then I gave myself an answer ; Those scars will show us just how strong we were in fighting, although we lost that one battle; we fought our hardest and ended up with memories. Just because you went falling doesn't mean you shouldn't get up anymore, we need to be stronger than that you know... And yes I am not prepared to lose because I've bled so much for him already, not literally but you know what I mean. If it was any other leader/individual I would be blogging the same thing. Someday you'll realise why I blog about them, for those who don't understand.

Listen to the song... open your heart while listening to it. Its a great song.

Are you still going to fight with me when the time comes?

Jay deserves all the happiness...

I know it, you know it... we all know it.

P.S PLEASE HELP ME FIND THE LYRICS OF 'MR. LONELY BY TEI FEAT. BEKHA' Thank you.

♥ Gee

After School Craze

2010-02-18T10:37:00.010+11:00

Hello there. *looks down*
What a short entry. Sorry about that I was a bit distracted and didn't come back online LMAO. But here I am with a new layout, thanks to LATIENZA/jbunny for this wonderful basecodes and thanks to my sucky art skills for the header. Its nice to know I can still blend here and there. Anyways on with my life...
I've been very busy nowadays, there's this 3 days appointment thing I had to go to for some training just in case I get a job and stuff (they also help me find a job). It's been a hassle because its in the middle of the day like WTH? Can't you put it in the morning or something? So I'd get home at night and stuff, as soon as I change clothes I sleep... zZzZzZz ; it's good rest.

As you can see Bekha and Gahee have stolen the spotlight lately (spotlight in my life anyway) ; they are both beautiful. I just wish Bekha will have more attention and stuff. UEE and Gahee gets most of it, I'm not hating on the girls or anything like that but you know sometimes its good to share, and for the record Bekha is such a talented girl you know; why wouldn't you want her to be singing more lines. She's a great rapper as well but I want her to be on vocals more.

Gahee on the other hand we all know about, she's like an all rounder for After School. She raps, sings and leads the dances and stuff. There was this one photo that I love so much because she looks so DAMN beautiful in it, I will find it and share it next time. I'm sure most of you have seen it already.

But yes I've been having an "After School Craze" especially now that I finally got to watch the newest STAR DANCE BATTLE. I was laughing my hearts out when I watched SNSD vs. After School. You all know how I don't really like SNSD right? But it was crazy how AFTER SCHOOL PWNED them badly. HAHA, I like UEE in that Perf; she had that strong character when she was dancing and also she smiled.

Well for those who didn't see the performance, here they are;

After School - Lip Gloss + Wall to Wall

What it is - SNSD PERF

I'm going crazy again so I think I should just get over this thing and have some breakfast. So I'll see you all soon again . I miss you all and love you all so much...

♥ Gee

Winglin?

2010-02-17T08:47:00.001+11:00

Hello ..

Hey here's a quick post.
Ummss just wondering is it just me or has winglin been down for like how many days now? :S Anyways Just let me know. This post will be deleted tonight for a longer post, I might even post my Ghost Love Chapter here ahahha. I'm weird anyways I miss you all so much.

♥ Gee

Advance Happy Valentines Day.

2010-02-13T22:16:00.008+11:00

Advance Happy Valentines Day.
To be honest to all of you I am not looking forward to Valentines day because I hate Valentines day... LOL nah seriously, I hate it. Don't ask why, I think I can give you 100 reasons why so don't get me started. So anyways even though I wasn't looking forward to it, I made something for everyone to see and enjoy... I love you all thats why I made it... Though I don't like valentines day doesn't mean I don't have a date. See the icon? That's G-Dragon and well he's my Valentines... He'll message me tomorrow for sure ;) Here's a few gifts for you awesome readers...

(Happy Valentines Day from SS501 and Jaellie)

(Happy Valentines Day feat. Wooyoung (2PM), Bekah (After School) and Jaellie)

(This one's not for the taking... This one's the thing I designed for CC-Muncher's Challenge)

(THIS ONE IS DEFINITELY NOT FOR YOU.
This is for my BoBo-Park)

ADVANCE HAPPY VALENTINES DEARS :)

♥ Gee

Just the normal brag.

2010-02-12T18:44:00.016+11:00

Oh Hello there :)

What have you been up to? I spent the whole day trying to figure out what the heck I was gonna do. LOL nah just kiddings, I spent the whole day doing different stuff. Firstly I fixed my blog and stuff. As you can see the fan-fiction section is much cleaner now and its been categorized. If you have any other artist you want me to write a story for just message my chat-box and I'll do my best :) ; I entered a challenge again @ CC-Munchers. This site is soo cute, but yes I handed in two entries and I'm still writing my one-shot for 'Dear Kibum' haha, I'm so weird. I don't know what I would do with them after though. If you want to see my entries just go to the site and check out my name, if you're too lazy don't worry I'll post them at my artwork stuff so yeah. Speaking of challenges I still need to make a section for the awards I received for my first challenge win :) I think I got a gold because I was the only one who entered that one challenge.

Then after I updated "Ghost Love" I'm falling in love with this fan-fiction every time I write it. A lot of my readers are addicted and needs to check into a rehab LOL. Too much drugs from reading...

After that I stayed in my room designing a poster for the After School story that I will be writing. I had to change the name to "A Different Story" because "Memoirs of A Single Mum" sounded good but it's mostly going to be Bekah and I didn't want that because I wanted to give voice to So-Ah as well. I'll post that synopsis after this post :)

That was basically what I did all day. Now I'm waiting for Music Bank to come on while downloading the rest of "Making of the Artist" I realised I only had Wooyoung on my iTouch and I wanted to do a Marathon again but then it was only him for that one Making of the artist so there was no point.

What else did I download? Oh yeah I downloaded 'Oh!' Dance version. My friends and I went picnic yesterday and like always we talked about k-pop and yes ERICA was dancing to Oh! So I thought why not learn it too? I don't like girl bands only a few... I definitely don't like SNSD only some of them... YURI HAS A FREAKING HOT BODY !!! I say that because I'm jealous not because I'm gay... LOL How can I get my belly so flat like hers? It's so beautiful... Oh yeah I'll be downloading a lot more today, since I haven't download in awhile. AFTER SCHOOL here I come ;) .

It's bloody hot.

I finished some of the letters that I wrote. I finished BoBoLi0us' letter already, just waiting to send it to her. LOL which reminds me I need to e-mail her for her address and stuff. Alright so much gotta do, an hour left for Music Bank. T-T Fail I can't wait it's my first time watching MuBank so I'm sorry if I sound so bloody excited and stuff. I'm searching for a lot of B-Boy videos nowadays because for some reason I fell in love with B-Boy's not because of Jay but because of this guy I saw breaking. OH AND JALEN IS THE CUTEST! This kid is DOPE! I'm glad he's a mini Jaebeom. But yes I twitted this before I think it was yesterday but I said; "I want a bboy for a boyfriend or a hip-hop dancer" you can like show them off to your ex boyfriends and stuff and plus they have so much more to offer ;) THEY CAN TEACH ME HOW TO DANCE!

Time is flying by.

Soon enough I'll gone to go to the Philippines. It's going to be one heck of a holiday. I can't wait for it, it's like what? 5 YEARS? I miss my sister and my nephews. *SIGH! But yes yes soon I'll be back there. Anyways I think thats all for today, I have to like download more videos... I'm thinking of making a trailer for Ghost Love, Stuck Between Two and A Different Story. I'll see you all again soon. I love you all, JYC I LOVE YOU !!! haha.

♥ Gee | 12th February 2010

After School Addiction + Wooyoung.

2010-02-10T20:34:00.024+11:00

Okay so here comes my second addiction, well girl band actually.
"AFTER SCHOOL" in the house :) ; I don't know why it took me so long to freaking recognize them but -BECAUSE OF YOU- touched my heart. "The music itself is powerful". Seriously the rap and the rhythm of the song makes me want to dance to it all the time. The first time I saw the MV of 'Because of You' I cried like crazy. I felt everything, it was that good. Now I'm stuck to this song forever.

Park Gahee is LOVE!!!!! I first saw her when she performed Heartbeat. Yes Heartbeat, which was like this year or something. That's how much I didn't know about After School but yes I love them now. Every time I watched that 'Heartbeat' performance my mouth still hangs open. The way Gahee popped her chest makes me want to pop my chest the same way. Seriously its that crazy, I would always replay just that one beat over and over again; I'm not exaggerating but that's how crazy I was over Park Gahee.

I watched 'Because of You' - Bekah~Unnie is too cute. She's really cute, I just wanna pinch her cheeks. Anyways I prefer her hair black though, she looks more beautiful. Don't know who I'm on abaout? Well here's a few pictures :)

P. S Don't mind me going on about me and Bekah tweeting apparently she doesn't have twitter T-T I feel sad.

AFTER SCHOOL.

. . . . .

Rebekah Kim [After School's Rapper]

. . . .

Park Gahee [Heartbeat Perf]

Now do you know who I'm on about?! Well yes these two ladies are my idol ^^ They make me want to be more passionate about my singing; I love them both. Alright stop with my fan girl over After School. Let's talk about WOOYOUNG!!!! Oh the yummy guy. I just have two photos that will speak for itself...

Are you saying no to that?! You must be crazy then. The second image doesn't he remind
you of Super Junior's Eunhyuk? (other hubbie) Don't you reckon?

Speaking of Ang Ang I wrote a one-shot for a challenge so I hope you all can read and comment me.

Here's the link ... Tik Tok - CCM CHallenge

♥ Gee

Jaellie is overrated LMAO!

Realization... I guess?

2010-02-09T11:11:00.010+11:00

Hello there. ^^
So like I resigned from VERSAHTYLE on Sunday. Sad I know, some of you might not know what I'm on about but yes I resigned from my own site... 9 months of working there, WOW such a long time. I felt like I was actually working - HAHA. There goes VST for me, I'm gonna miss it but like life's getting hectic now. Like seriously anytime now I will called for work; I just hope its soon. I applied for another agency to expand my chances and stuff so I hope GOD will help me on this one now.

I read another book and I actually finished it. It's called "Memoirs of a Teenage Amnesiac" such a beautiful book; made me cry while I was out waiting for a friend at the mall. LOL yes people I looked like a weirdo but it's all good; it was good. I loved the story line, like seriously I didn't know how it was going to end but I loved how it ended. It was sad though her relationship with this guy name "James" made me cry the most (Cry baby, I know) ; It's an amazing book. I suggest you read it. One more thing, Maki (Japanese Actress) will be the lead actress for the movie coming out, I don't know when. But it's funny because her boyfriend in the story is like American or something and their speaking Japanese so I don't know how that's going to work LOL.

Second part of this post ;; Realization... I guess.

I'm going to be hated by many others out there and stuff but this is how I feel okays. BoBo, relax before you read aiights? Okay so like I was lying down on my bed watching the new MV with 2PM of course, then after watching it. I sat there for awhile, thinking about all the things that happened in like the last 5 months. I've seen how the HOTTESTS are fighting to get Jay back, I've seen how they are pressuring those in JYPE to bring him back, I've seen how they fought those antis but then I'm like to myself; "I know we're fighting for Jay but is this what he wants? What if he really needs the breaks? What if he's just trying to restore himself?" Those questions ran through my mind like non-stop until I fell asleep, I woke up thinking the same thing. I was just on TWITTER and someone said that Jay wants to come back. It's great news, it really is... I guess what I'm trying to say is maybe Jay needs his space and time.

I've seen pictures and you know BBOY videos of him with his crew and he looks happy so why shouldn't we be? I'm not saying I'm giving up on Jay, I'm just saying maybe it's time to give him a break. I know 5 months have been too long and I know you HOTTESTS are hurting; I am too but in my opinion we're losing track on what really matters. All we are thinking about is what we want... have you ever thought about what he wants? We're fighting for him and he's fighting for us too but he needs space. I was just speaking with Chazz unnie this is what she said : "for now, i don't want him to come back, i want him to take a break and let him decide what's best" ; Unnie's right, Jay is old enough to take care or himself and make his own decision.

Don't you want him to be happy? Let's say he does come back now just because we all want him back, would he be happy? I know he will be happy to be standing in front of us and to be standing along side his brothers but what about for himself? Would he be happy for him? I have nothing against him coming back, I'm just looking at this situation from another side. I've come to realize what many of us hasn't and it's focusing on Jay and not what we want! We demand for him to come back and everything; is he ready?! That's my question.

Hate me all you want but sometime this week or next week you'll wake up and say "DAMN THAT CRAZY GIRL IS RIGHT!" and when that week comes, visit me again and let me know just how selfish we've been.

I love Jay and no doubt about that but there comes a point in one's life where one person does not only focus on what they want but also focus on what the other person wants. Jay is strong, he'll know what to do... Let's be patient and stop harassing people okay?

♥ Jaelliex3

Fan Account + Jay = Tears.

2010-02-07T21:30:00.008+11:00

Hey there.
Okay I was suppose to blog last night but I couldn't because of VST's awards night. And I think I was suppose to message those people who won but I haven't :S , I'm occupied but anyways tonight I'll be talking about a fan account I read which made me cry, I'm sure half of you have read it already but I don't care I will post it here anyways. I loved it and whoever wrote it, I will love forever and ever...

"It’s been a long time.
This is only the second time I’ve written since writing about the b-boying competition from December.
Frankly, the people who thought the competition was took it as a joke amongst people in Korea made me upset which is why I wrote my post in the first place. But so many people in DC Gallery and fans gave such a fiery reaction that I was shocked.
The words I wrote that time didn’t have much about Jaebum, the majority consisted about how the b-boying competition went.
For the record, so many people shared an overflow of words expressing their sorrow that even I choked up.
So I decided that I could not overlook everyone that expressed their sorrow stung my heart.
I wanted to post more stories about Jaebum but I thought it might be too much so I decided against it.

I didn’t end up writing much in the story I posted about Jaebum but people who read them were so touched and grateful.
Thanks to those people, after that day my impression of Jaebum changed even more and I guess you could even call me a fan now.
This is all thanks to everyone.
At the time that I wrote my last words, I was upset at the opinion of the people who didn’t take these b-boying competitions seriously that I wrote the post with a cold heart.
This time, I write with a completely different feeling that even my diction has changed. Ke

To be honest, I regretted the words I posted because I tried to be heartless in writing those words but my feelings just naturally flowed into that post.
I myself am a native-Korean in America and have felt the loneliness living here that I, without knowing, I thought I might be viewing b-boying from only my perspective that I reflected on myself.
Those people just might be dancing for the sole reason that they love doing it.
I felt sorry that I viewed those people so lightly.

Anyways, I hope that when reading this post you disregard my personal feelings and only take into account the facts.
In a situation where you can’t trust the newspaper articles and the rumors that continue to overflow, if you account for my personal fandoms, this will become even more chaotic.
This reason I attended another b-boying competition is due to the words I posted last time.
For the many fans who were unsatisfied and full of sorrow, my heart was moved my them in addition to the fact that I had gained interested in the person Park Jaebum that I decided to attend another b-boying competition.

In the beginning I hated Park Jaebum only due to the fact that he was affiliated with JYP. I also didn’t like his face that made him look as though he was a badly behaved person.
I felt like such a fool for judging him even without knowing who he was and just hating him for absolutely no reason…
I think that it may be why I hold more interest in him now.
Because of the fact that I was so remorseful for how much I hated him for no reason…

Again, I’m writing words here that I should be writing in my diary.
To be truthful, my heart might have even changed after seeing his back.
The start is serious.
And now I sincerely hope with a positive attitude that everything will turn out okay in the end.

I am not someone who held any sort of like as a fan since the beginning, I am actually who disliked them. I changed so dramatically that even I am surprised with myself. I even keep repeating what I say over and over again.
Sorry my words are getting long winded.

I knew of this b-boying competition because it was announced back in December during the other competition.
This venue was incomparably larger than the one that the previous competition was held that was a great place for me to learn more about b-boying as someone who was unfamiliar with it.
The last competition was free but this time we had to pay an $8 entrance fee.
Just like last time the competition was 6 hours, but since the venue was larger that there was just as many more people there that there was barely enough room to place your feet anywhere.
On a weekend night, it seemed like all the b-boyers and the ones who were interested in b-boying from the general Seattle area were all gathered.
People waited in line past 10 to get in to view the competition.
There was so much going on due to the masses of people that I was unable to hear how this competition would be held.

I was watching for a long time and began to seem members of Jaebum’s team arrive.
Behind the many people, I could see Jaebum’s eyebrows and eyes, and his head watching others b-boying.
Just I was thinking to myself , ‘Oh? He’s here.’ I could see people mixed amongst the crowed starting to take pictures of Jaebum that caught my eye.
So I started to look around and noticed that there were many fans placed strategically amongst the crowd.
I don’t know if it was the fact that this competition was a larger scale competition than the last or the fact that it was more publicized but it seemed like there were more people there.

Last time, the competition had a quiet, awkward mood, but this time because there were so many more people, the cheers were louder and it was just a much more fun atmosphere. It could be felt by both the audience and the b-boy crews.
Personally , I totally fell for Jalen, ChaCha, and Jr.’s b-boying. They were really good.

In between the competitions, people approached Jaebum for autographs and greeted him. It seemed like he felt awkward but he still politely listened to them.

Even American kids were secretly taking pictures of Jaebum.
I wanted to say something about the people taking pictures who even took pictures of him walking around and hanging out, but I kept my mouth shut because I guessed it was his fate that strangers were taking pictures of him.

In that time, I ran into Jaebum.
Honestly, I ran into him multiple times in the venue because it was so tightly packed, but I pretended not to notice him.
But then I suddenly gained the courage to say “Hey Jay”.
And then Jaebum turned around, I gave him a chocolate bar and said “Happy Valentine”.

I said in English, “The b-boying competition is very exciting and fun”.
Then very courteously he said, “You can speak Korean with me.”
I didn’t use Korean on purpose because I wanted to avoid speaking formally with him to erase any awkwardness between us.
Maybe my English was totally horrible keke I was so surprised at his “You can speak Korean with me.”

So I mumbled to myself quietly, “Is my English weak?”
But he heard me and said, “No. It’s not that. But please, you can speak comfortably in Korean to me.”
Suddenly, without myself knowing, I felt a surge of emotion.

Because it might be uncomfortable for me to speak English,
Because it might sound like he was speaking informally if he spoke in English to me,
To avoid that, he politely and courteously offered to speak in Korean. I was at a loss of words.
He said to me, “Enjoy the b-boying wholeheartedly before you go,” as he left.
Seeing Jaebum’s back, made me choke up.
I won’t write the way I felt then because they were my personal feelings. I don’t want to depress the people reading this about my feelings.

As I was leaving after the competition finished, I discovered Jaebum by himself.
He nodded his head remembering me from the brief time we met.
Unbeknownst to me I suddenly burst out, “Of course, leadja is different. Totally the best”.
Suddenly, he shyly smiled.

The boy who looks cold if he doesn’t speak shyly smiled immediately as he heard the word, “leadja”…
My heart just ached.
I hoped that I wasn’t bringing back the memories of such a happy time by saying “leadja” that even after I said it that I was surprised that I said it.
But I was so happy that leadja liked it.

So I collected the courage to say, “Jaebum. When you go to Korea you’re going to be great."
He smiled a smile of happiness with his special threaded-eye, cringed nose smile.
So I said, “Good luck, annyeong (bye),” and turned my back.
Honestly, I thought if I looked at him any longer that my heart would become weak, so I turned around.
And I promised myself that I would not go to another b-boying competition.

The next time I see Jaebum will be in Korea, as the confident leadja…that is why I will not go to another b-boying competition.

I have only had interest in them for a short amount of time, but someone who has the ability to move people’s hearts is someone named Jaebum.
But just because of that doesn’t mean that I worship him like he is some kind of god.
Because I am in the center because even though I am in a similar situation as Jaebum, I am nothing like him and my life is a mess.
I admire the fact that, contrary to me, Jaebum works so hard in life.
Though I make plans, I don’t keep them. When things get too hard, I give up easily.
I live thinking that if today finishes, surely tomorrow will come so I lived life day by day.
Reality isn’t like that, persons who put their blazing passion into something are good persons.

This story has also become too long.
It’s probably a pain to read something so long…kekeke

He doesn’t need brand names like Gucci or Louis Vuitton.
He is someone that looks complete with just a plain white tee.

Nowadays, you don’t know if someone is wearing brand names or if the brand names wear them.
But brilliantly able to shine his charm without them, he is someone that is cool."

Take out with full credits. There shouldn't be any removal or addition to the credits.
CREDITS: DC GALLERY (SOURCE); tvxqbuzz7921@2ONEDAY.COM (trans)

Okay before I read the article I told myself "B!tch don't cry!" Seriously I said that to myself, quietly though. But yeah so I started reading what this writer was saying and at first I was like "WTH? How can you hate Jaebum?" then yeah the whole thing started to make sense to me. The sentences that stands out are obviously the sentences I loved the most. As the writer started getting into the whole Jaebum issue I felt like I was relieving old memories then I realised, Oh my gawd I am!

But yes this writer brought tears in my eyes.

"I have only had interest in them for a short amount of time, but someone who has the ability to move people’s hearts is someone named Jaebum." - This is the line that sent invisible knife into my heart to cut it open and ripped it all apart. WHY? Because Jay moved me... He moved me in so much ways. Through his dancing, I felt every emotion there. The passion, the need, the want and everything else he dreamed of. Through his singing, that high pitched voice lifts my feet off the ground; making me feel like everything is alright. Through his leadership, don't get me started because seriously I would go on forever. But through this; I always feel like I need to be a good leader... a good example to those who looks me.

Jaebum and G-Dragon were the ones who lit the fire that had died in me a long time ago. My passion for music, my passion for singing and my passion into following my dreams. They lit it up, like the words they spoke whenever I watch them - it's indescribable. I don't think I'll ever be the same again. Reading that article made me miss Jaebum even more, I miss the leadja and I know you do too... ♥

I promise I'm going to work hard from now on. From this day forward, I'll be stronger and maybe a little weak LOL but I'll definitely keep fighting.

" YAH JAY PARK. I'D LIKE TO SEE YOU AS MY VALENTINES
BUT UNFORTUNATELY YOU ARE TAKEN
BY SOMEONE SPECIAL IN MY LIFE TOO SO I'M HAPPY.
But Jay come back soon and I wouldn't
care about valentines day anymore. As long as I see you along with your
brothers, every day will be like valentines day for me.
I love you Jay ♥ "

♥ Jaelliex3

Post-Its & Braggs.

2010-02-05T12:14:00.024+11:00

Okay hello its me again.
Today I'll be talking about my post-its. I took a photo of some of them but not all of them because that would have killed my camera LOL. There was a lot of cheesy stuff that was written on it so I didn't want to expose those cheesy stuff, they are for AMERICA's eyes only ;) LOL, anyways I have to plug my phone too... I completely forgot... But anyways I got my post-its ready for upload. So like I quoted some quotes from BoBo when I ran out of things to say and did I ever tell you guys/girls that I love BoBoLi0us... She's the coolest dongsae ever, she quotes me a lot :) ; Don't mind my ugly writing...

From Left to Right ;

A quote I saw from BoBo's old post and icon...
I wrote that when I was at the city :)
"Breathing for us is like the best gift we could ever receive, take care of yourself"
I wrote this when I was trying to connect to a Wi-Fi it says ; "Connecting... Jay, I can't connect you're too far away... Come closer" Lame I know...
My title page for Jaebeom's page on my scrapbook...
Last image says : "Our hearts are crying out for more, more of Park Jaebum. The Leadja of 2PM. The b-boy Christina fell in love with"

From left to right;

Can you see the band-aid? It's Puss from SHERK, it says on the post-it ; "Take the band-aid Jay, it will help you heal. SEVEN" another post it says "They will never have another leader who will sing the second verse of the chorus as good as you" another one says "It's us vs. THEM!"
LMAO I tried making that sign thing flying across the sky but I failed. Another post it says; "VOICES HEARD! One by one our voices will be heard. You will be there standing along with your brothers, you will smile and you will shed a tear of Joy" - I really believe that our voices will be heard.
I quoted the 'This Love' speech my baby GD said on the of his song... I got it from BoBo's little Lyrics connotations :)
"I would give you my world. Just tell me if you're tired, I'll take you in" This is is by me, I really would take him in if he's tired and then send him to BoBo's house ;)
"SMILE. Thank you Jay, because of that smile I'm strong and I fought my best" I found that in one of my poems I wrote which is sort of related to Jay.
"I'll make a wish... and say your name" - I got this from BoBo's Tumblr :)
I got this from BoBo's tumblr again. "And my very first chapter starts with a prologue which includes the words “What does it take to bring yourself to the point where you can actually embrace the one thing that wants to kill you”

From left to right ;

"Falling in Love; It takes courage and hard work but when we lay eyes on you, its like a never ending fairytale where everyone has a part to play" - I was really into the whole writing thing and I became cheesy...
"Dreaming is no crime. Fighting makes me stronger. Giving up doesn't mean you're a coward, it just makes you afraid of what's beyond the situation" - Did that make sense?
"JAEBUM! His fragile heart broke but we came to his aid" - Yes we are here to mend your heart.
"Don't cry because its over, smile because it happened" - I don't know why I wrote that but I did... I think I was thinking about that guy I have a crush on...
"I can't let you go even if I die... Even the 2AM boys are singing to you baby" - Sorry B, I got carried away...
"SHATTERED: I was asleep but was awaken by a shatter. I look up the sky and saw your heart shattered... But its time to put them back to where they belong" - Can you blame me? I was heartbroken okays...

From left to right;

"Together, forever. Can you promise us that no matter what happens you will smile and stay cool?" - Who knows what will happen but no matter what happens I want him to smile.
"We want to save you just like you save some of us" - I was thinking about how some people became strong and held onto their passion as dancers because they looked up to Jay and stuff so I thought 'Hey why not write that'.
"-RECHARGE!- We're ready for another round, do we have your support Jay?" I was listening to "Baby Steps" and the word Recharge came and I was like I want to recharge too.
Lyrics from baby steps.
"Happy Birthday: Chansung maknae, WOW SO HOT AND YUMMY HAVE A GOOD ONE" - LOL that's nothing compare to what Larissa wrote "Jay come back I want to have your babies" LOL
"A thousand cries vs. a thousand hate! WHO ARE YOU ROOTING FOR? The innocents or the convicts?" - TV got the best of me, I was watching some crime show...

From Left to right.

"Fame? This is not what it's about. It's about doing what's right and speaking for the victim; we're speaking for you" - I have no idea if I should refer to him as a victim but to me that's how I saw him.
"Heal us. Help us heal, we'll help you too" - I just miss him.
"Our days are so cold and lonely. We surrender just to hear your voice" - Purest of Pain by Son by Four. I love this song so much.
"Will you be BoBo's V-date? Forget about me just go with her!" - See BoBo he's all yours.
"Love Like This. Will you be BoBo's true love?" - BoBo will you be Jay's true love?
That's the quote from Ghost Love...
"I'll be there when your heart breaks to pieces" - I'm still here Jay & I'll always be.
That's how much post it we had still.
WILD BUNNY :)
OUR ICECREAM ... YUMMY!
Me that day... well mostly Jay's shirt..

Okay so that's the end of my blabbing about my post its and whatever other things I blabbed about. I'm off to read, I also bought a new book the day I bought 2AM so yeah. It's called "Memoirs of a Teenage Amnesiac" to summarise the story for you, its sort of like basically just renewing the old you... It's nice. I'm loving it so far ^^

♥ Jaelliex3

Successful Mission & 2AM

2010-02-04T11:38:00.008+11:00

Hello there fellow people :)
Gosh its been like how long since I blogged (....) I don't know LOL. I realised that my blog is filled with nothing but complaints which is kinda sad T-T. Anyway here I am again and I will be giving you more updates on my life when I don't get lazy. Ummm for starters I went for an interview on Tuesday for a job and there's a high chance I will be called this week or next week so I'm pretty happy about it, the only problem is I might not have enough time to write and stuff like that which is ridiculous really. But I will find time if I do get called for work. The layout and Icon I'm using now is not mine. Layout = JTOASN which is really cool :) ; the ICON = luv_arron ^^.

So anyway you know how that post-its project happened in NY for Jay right? Well the AUSSIE HOTTESTS gathered together to do the same, but we will send our post-its to NYC so they can post it for us. Our main goal was 1000 which was not easy to do when there's only 5 people doing it, LOL. We received messages from other people to so it was cool. I, alone wrote 385 post-its; they said I was crazy but I fell TANK ;) I feel so proud of myself writing 385 post-its in 3 days straight. You don't know how big my eye-bags are right now. They are like ohmygosh, I don't want to see it anymore LOL LOL. The total amount of our post-its is ; are you readyy?? The total amount is... 1185 post-its. That's an additional 185 post-its, we could have reached 2000 if we weren't running out of time LOL. Last day was yesterday because they will be sending it soon. I was happy when we reached our goal.

Do you guys remember my Jaebum T-shirt? Well I wore that to the city to represent BoBo's-Jay. GOSH I FEEL SO ALIVE! Now let's just pray our voices will be heard, there are so much people saying all these things about so much stuff and it's kinda crazy because now apparently someone from 2PM switched sides, not gonna name anyone but I'm sure we might be thinking of the same person. Let's hope for the best for the boys.

On another note, you know 2AM's album? WELL I HAVE IT ;) I bought it yesterday before we started our post-its. Me, Christy and Kathy went inside this store where they sell all sort of dvds, posters and other bunch of asian stuff. When we came it was Big Bang playing on the monitor and my friend Christy went spastic seeing Daesung's face. So we walked inside the store and started browsing for music. The song finished and it was another Big Bang song, so we were like "alright we're staying" then we waited for it to finish and it was Taeyang's Wedding Dress now Kathy and I went spastic... Christy was like "Let's go" me and Kathy were like "NOPE WE'RE STAYING!" It went like that for like who knows how many songs, then SNSD "Oh!" came on and we're like "EWWW" ahahaha weird girls but anyways... doesn't explain the 2AM album. So yeah Kathy was like on the other side of the self and she came to and said "Look what I see in the box" *Gee Looks* "OH GREAT 01:59 ALBUM" I replied sarcastically and I was so curious about what else was in the box and TADA this curious cat didn't die, instead she went to heaven and found 2AM.... So I started spazz-ing by myself and dragged Christy along with me. We stood in front of the box for like forever and waited 'till they take it out and as soon as they did Christy grabbed the album like there's no tomorrow. We bought it and earned ourselves a $2 Poster. Gosh the happiness I felt yesterday and now I'm addicted to one song... Track (03) - Sorry I Can't Smiled For You ; GOSH the heartache of the song. I'm learning it so I can cover it, it's too good to not cover. Pictures will be up so you girls/guys will believe me that I have it. I'm not lying, koz I know they said it's been delayed but I have it... :)

Love you all . SUCCESSFUL MISSION AND 2AM... :D

Enjoy my beautiful 2AM boys :)

P.S JIN WOON IS MINEE SOO HANDS OFF.

♥ Jaelliex3

Baby Steps Cover [Vasity]

2010-01-26T15:18:00.004+11:00

Hey there. Sorry was meant to blog last night but my video took forever to upload, BLOODY computer. I'll be signing up for my own internet once I get back from Philippines which is around May something but anyways I'm just here to share with you a cover song. This song is called Baby Steps by Varsity, I love the song so much and here I am covering it. I hope you enjoy it, I messed up here and there and I cbb to change it again LOL. But tell me what you think okays? Take care and I love you ..

Love you all and more of me to come soon...

Jaelliex3

Messed up.

2010-01-20T00:28:00.000+11:00

DAMN IT!
I got hit 3 times in a row. Does Korea have anything against me? Like seriously, they are attacking the LEADERS. Hit 1; Jay Park... Hit 2; G-DRAGON and Hit 3; Kim Hyun Joong. That's 3 of my leaders attacked. ARGH! Seriously I am not in my right mind right now, I just feel like screaming and going crazy. Its 12:30AM so not possible, maybe when I wake up tomorrow... ALRIGHT TASK AS SOON AS I WAKE UP I'LL SCREAM!!! No matter what time it is, I'll scream.

Anyways just thought I'll rage. Talk soon.

♥ Jaelliex3

Sing for me? SUX!

2010-01-18T23:31:00.007+11:00

Hey there people.
So like I finally decided to upload an Acapella. I suck I totally do so please don't mind me. Just listen to it and just criticize all you want, hehehe. Oh by the way this is the song I sang at Graduation for Year 12. Hope you guys like it, another video will be up later on. It's 12:37AM and I will get in trouble if I don't get off now, I'll see you all soon. Enjoy my FAILURE! HAHAHA. I love you all, yg_bigD; here's for you & Chazz Unnie here's a clear version of what I sang in my assembly.

♥ Jaelliex3

Get It Shawty

2010-01-18T15:31:00.004+11:00

1. Put your music on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!
4. Tag 10 friends who might enjoy doing the memo as well as the person you got the memo from.

Now to begin...

IF SOMEONE SAYS “IS THIS OKAY” YOU SAY?
Lemonade - Passion
(He's my sunshine in the rain...)

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
How Do I Breathe - Mario Barrett
(LOL)

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Vulnerable - Secondhand Serenade
(Yes, I feel vulnerable)

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
I Got You - Mike Hoang feat. Nikki Flores
(NAWWW I GOT YOU. Mike is my friend just to let you know)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE’S PURPOSE?
Where is my rose? - Dpryde
(Looking for something, that's what the song is about)

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Love Fool - New Found Glory
(My iTOUCH hates me)

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Harana - Parokya Ni Edgar
(Translation - Serenade. Who will serenade me?)

WHAT IS 2+2?
Lost Then Found - Varsity
(Love VARSITY!)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Salamat - Yeng Constantino
(Translation - Thank You ; I am thankful. I want my OTH!)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Nobody Knows It But Me - Babyface
(I pretended I'm glad you went away...)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Fly On The Wall - Miley Cyrus
(What is she still doing on my iTOUCH?)

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
He's A Star - Juice
(YAY! I want to be a star when I grow up)

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
As You Bring Tomorrow - Alex Kaneko
(This is a love song by the way)

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Cracks of a broken heart - Onew
(Great, shouldn't it be the other way around?)

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Moving On - INOJ
(Officially loving my iTOUCH! HAHA, so I'll be moving on; in time you look I will be gone)

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Art of Love - Guy Sebastian feat. Jordin Sparks
(LMAO, that's my hobby? Maybe interest but not hobby)

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Touch My Body Remix - Mariah Carey feat. Dpryde.
(Right...)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Ewan - Imago
(Translation - I don't know.. Sorry friends, iTOUCH's a mess HAHA!)

WHAT’S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
Right Here Waiting - White Dawg
(Never to hurt you but I know I did)

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
Time In - Yeng Constantino
(THIS IS A HAPPY SONG! WHAT THE HELL ITOUCH!)

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
Love Don't Stop - Dpryde
(...)

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
No One Else Come Close (Remix) - C.Skippah
(Regret telling him no one else comes close)

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
Angel of Mine - Monica
(English Songs overpowered my Korean songs)

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
I'm Yours - Jason Mraz
(Does that answer the question?)

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
I'm Sorry - DJ Sancho
(I'm sorry for everything... That's what the song is about)

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
Apologise - One Republic
(Meaning no)

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
It's Going To Be Okay - Lee Hyori feat. BigTone
(I'm not scared for everything to be okay)

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
Ji Mo Guang Chang - Vanness Wu
(Translation - A Lonely Square)

WHAT WOULD YOU SAY, WHEN YOU MEET YOUR BOSS?
Stay - Lisa Loeb
(A bit weird don't you think?)

WHAT WOULD THE LOVE OF YOUR LIFE SAY TO YOU?
Us Against The World - Christina Miller
(NAWWW ; *falls in love*)

WHAT WOULD YOU SAY TO YOUR WORST ENEMY-TURN-FRIEND?
Cheater's Dilemma - Kay B
(....)

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Get It Shawty - LLYOD.
(My iTOUCH failed)

Auditions. ?

2010-01-16T22:52:00.006+11:00

HI !!!
OHMYGOSH, FINALLY THE WEATHER IS GOOD!
It's currently, 10:54PM, Saturday, January 16th 2010 ; Weather = Raining with a beautiful breeze. What a nice night to fall asleep.
Impossible for me since I slept around 5PM woke up @ 8PM. I haven't had enough sleep nowadays, it's all because of Boys Over Flowers... KIM HYUN JOONG and KIM KIBUM will give me a heart attack. Every time those boys smiled at that show I felt like my heart was going to jump out of my chest. They are too beautiful.
It's 11:42PM now, look at the gap of the time. I had to do something so I stopped blogging and now blogging again. Anyways but yes I have been watching Boys Over Flowers. It's sort of mean I was more excited about the love story between Kim Bum and Kim So Eun than the main characters HAHA. Retard, I know.. no need to emphasize. But seriously they were so cute, especially when he came back from Sweden and he came to find her. ARGH! Apparently there's a Season 2, I hope so. I want to see So Eun and Bum together as lovers not friends pretending to not like each other. I hope my Hyun Joong finds another woman, a pretty one and a lovely one.

Change subject before I go totally crazy and starts fan-girling when I am not suppose to. Okay so one weird night, I don't know what I ate and what I was thinking, I talked to JTOASN about me applying for one of the Korean industry stuff. She said it'd be worth a try so TADA here I am collecting applications, hoping I would be good enough to at least one of them. I want to at least go to Korea even for audition and even if I fail I still made it to Korea. I should take my GodFather there (~~which is my cousin~~), he worked in Korea somewhere in Seoul for awhile so maybe he can be my translator hehehe. I recorded two songs both ACAPELLA. Still going to record another one, both with music and without. So I can continue on with my dreams LOL. I'll post my videos soon, maybe tomorrow. Look forward to it. Wish me luck with life. See you later

Jaelliex3

One More Time...

2010-01-14T22:53:00.007+11:00

Hello. I'm back again with yet another post, well to be honest this post is going to be my last post about the dork whom I fell in love with. I've thought about it a few times, I mean the fact that I blog about him and he's never ever going to read. I've wasted a few post talking about how I felt about him when I could have just searched his name on my phonebook and called him myself. I'm a coward but so is he. I really don't know if he is that oblivious to what I feel or he just doesn't care but either way I don't care anymore; I won't sit in front of the computer talking about how beautiful he is or how hurt I am because of him, I just won't but gimme one more time to do so.

You know some people say it's impossible to feel something towards someone who you hardly know or who you hardly see; Imma tell you something, it's not. It's a complete lie because I fell for someone who I saw once a month for 2 years, who I talked to every single night on MSN and who I message about how beautiful my day was or how his day went. I fell but they could be right also. Maybe it's just me who falls for charms just like that.

Hmmm? Is it right of me to be saying I fell in love? Maybe its infatuation, I don't know but whatever it is I am feeling, I feel it for him. The night he told me about a girl, my tears streamed like a river. I looked like a losser giving him advice such as; "You should talk to her" or "You should really get to know her" although it was against my will. Seriously I am a retard, more like martyr actually. I like to cause my own pain... After a long conversation on what he should do I ended with; "Just promise me you'll be careful, promise me"

You're calling me stupid aye? Well I called myself stupid too. I should have stopped when I had the chance to but I didn't instead I longed for him even more. THAT BLOODY DORK CAUSED ME TO FEEL SO ARGHHH!!!

But...

One last time, I want to let this out.

"Dear Mr. Star,

Hey. How are you feeling my dearest?
If you ask me you probably can already tell, I'm not so good because
for one last time I'll be talking about you.
Remember that night I told you I might have a crush on someone
and I talked to you about him for how many days
and then you convinced me to confess to him. You and your friend
were such cuties telling me that I should tell him
about how I feel, and here I am so dumb and wishful
I did. One night I confessed to you and you freaked out. I don't know what
you and your friend talked about after but I was so scared the next night to talk you.
I even avoided you but then you spoke to me first.

Then you broke my heart the first time.
Yes I was hoping you'd say,
"Me too, I feel the same" but then reality slapped me across the face.
I told you to forget about it and it seemed
like you actually did. Where did it leave me? It left me here
writing this useless piece of post!!! Writing
wishes maybe you'll remember the link to my blog and realise that it's been you
I've been blogging about a couple of times.

Silly little GEE fell in love with a silly little DORK!
Oh what an oblivious DORK.

Before I end this, let me tell you somethings I wish I told you.

I love the way you smiled even if I only got to see them once a month.

I love the way you waved even if it's only once a month.
You make me wish for another day.

I love the way you looked every once a month I see you.
You make look forward on another day @ the city.

I love the way your dimples shows when you waved goodbye.
You make me wish I was closer to you.

I love those chinky little eyes that I got attach too.
You make me want to smile.

I love the way you make me feel when I'm not the happiest girl on earth.
You make me feel so alive again.

I love the way you tell me just how special I am, maybe not to you but to someone else.
You make me feel valued.

With you I feel like everything will be alright.
Did you ever feel that way too?

This "invincible" girl is not so strong anymore.
You took the best of her. I hope you be happy and get what you want.

Smile for yourself not for anyone else.
Love her like you'll never love again.
And if she doesn't love you the way you do, always remember
I'll be there ready to catch you when she won't.

SMILE! That's what you told me after my confession,
I'm telling you now, SMILE.
I've lost a friend and a special someone in my life.
Take good care, this is goodbye.

Aishiteru. Saranghae ~"

May happiness be beside him. Just this one time, I confessed with my whole heart.

First Place.
" Love hurts in many ways.
You get stuck between his happiness and yours.
And no matter how much you try
And put yourself first he always seems to take first place.
And you wonder why?
But in the end of the day you realise that being in love with him
Means giving him your all even though in his heart,
You'll never be first place."
-Gee/Jaelliex3

Sayoonara.

♥ Jaelliex3

Today was...

2010-01-13T23:32:00.012+11:00

Hey there awesome followers/readers.
Well well well, how was your day? I hope you all have been awesome. I've been very bored. No calls from any work I applied at. ARGHH!!! I wann call them myself and ask why they aren't calling. It's because I'm Asian isn't? LOL okays that's a bit racist if that's the case. LOVE THE NEW LAYOUT? IF YOU DON'T THEN CLICK EXIT, HAHA JUST KIDDING BUT I DO LOVE IT, THANK YOU JTOASN FOR NOT DISPLAYING IT BECAUSE IT'S MINE; GD IS MINEE!!! HAHA I think I have gone crazy, anyways I want to share a couple of my very own photoshop`d for today. I was so bored that I started photoshopping G-Dragon. OoooOO G-Dragon attack. Here they are.

(I like this one. So simple and I don't know there's something about this photo that lures me into it)

(This is for that dork I really love. G-DRAGON'S A DORK, A DORK I LOVE; Simple and red)

(I love him because...)

(A message for the dork of my life...)

(This Love... Got me high I'm soarin')

(G-Dragon is the man)

Trust me I was so bored. G-Dragon was on my mind like crazy and now he still is, my iTOUCH's been playing Big Bang and 2PM songs only. WTH? LOL I should get off the computer soon because I just keep looking at BIG BANG pictures which leads to another G-Dragon addiction, *sigh ADDICT!

Do they have a cure for addiction towards KOREAN HOT MALES? #nowplaying ;; Where You At - Taeyang, thought I'd share. Okay so twitter is addictive too, it's for free on my phone until 31st March so it's all good. No need to pay for anything, even if I had credit I won't pay for it ahahha. I remember when they had Facebook for free, that was the awesomest.

Well I had a really good time with ummss, what cha ma call it, oh yeah BE HAPPY HOUR @ Twitter. There's this one picture that was PRICELESS feat. our ONE and ONLY Leadja ; P!nk Man Jaebum ...

(You have to agree this was funny. Credit to JaySkyMsg @ Twitter)

Alright alright I'll get off now. But before I do, two more pictures.

(He will be a wonderful father someday... JYC'S BABY!!! Hehe you love it JYC.)

(Doesn't he look like the guy from B2ST Doo Joon ; The leader - I think that's his name LOL)

LOL well that's all for today...

Today was... happiness for me. I got my mind off that dork I love who won't love me back. Take care everyone and I'll see you all soon.

&Jaelliex3

Don't Give Up.

2010-01-12T22:18:00.007+11:00

DON'T GIVE UP!

When you feel like giving up in the middle of a battle, what happens to all the fighting? I'll tell you what happens... Suddenly everything else just becomes meaningless. All those times you've cried, all those times you've held on; all that becomes meaningless. It's wasted, that's why sometimes it's better to keep fighting.

Give yourself enough reason to continue.
Give yourself enough reason to push through.
Don't give up in the middle of the battle. Finish it and hold you head's up high when you do. Because seriously in the end you'll realise it was all worth fighting for.

BoBo, I'm talking to you. Don't let go of him now, you've fought hard enough. He's worth fighting for, trust me and half of the HOTTEST will agree with me on this one. Tell you what, read through the blogs you wrote for him; the memorable ones. Read through every story you have written for him; every single one. Read through or look through whatever it is you're holding onto that relates to Jay then tell me if there wasn't any love in any of those. Because BoBo you love Jay too much to let go of him. I won't let you, I just won't. If you won't hold on then I will I hold on for you but trust me it's gonna hurt. Hold tight, I know right now it's all heartbreaks but once you see that beautiful smile again; all those will fade away. TRUST ME!

~

Never give up on the things that makes you happy,
because It'll make you feel miserable in the end.
Never give up on the things that gives you strength,
because It'll make you weaker in the end.
Never give up on the things that makes you smile,
because It'll make you frown in the end.
And never give up on what or who you love,
because It'll make you regret in the end.

Holding on doesn't mean you're not strong enough to let go it just means you're strong enough to fight for what is worthy. But then letting go doesn't mean you're weak, it just means you're strong enough to walk away.

Don't regret it in the end. Just don't give up, I'll be here fighting with you. I'll give you my strength when yours fades away. I'll give you reasons to fight back when you seem like its over. I'll give you love when it seems like everything or everyone else doesn't care. Lemme tell you something, I CARE and I never ever want you to give up. Hold on tight Christina (SOOMI) ; we are going to make the impossible, possible... :)

♥ Jaelliex3

Are you worth it?

2010-01-10T22:05:00.012+11:00

Hi.
I was just over @ BoBo's blog and by the looks of it, Mrs. BoBo-Park is not doing very well and I thought my life was tough. I just hope she talks to me whenever she have problems again. I love helping her, I love knowing that she can rely on me and stuff. Well as for me? I'm doing a little bit fine. I haven't got any news about G-Dragon's case so I have no idea what's going on with him right now. I just wish he would reply to my tweets nowadays, he tweeted my once but then he hasn't been on I guess. But yes I really do hope he's alright, I need him to be alright you know. It's hard not knowing anything especially when I'm here and he's there. I just hope everything works out well and for those who care so much about how I feel thank you so much and I hope that in the future you all will still be there for me.

Anyways that's not why I'm blogging. I'm blogging because my head hurts, it hurts because it's been thinking about one thing/person for the last couple of days. Yes indeed it's the homo who broke my heart without him realizing it. Why must people be so oblivious? *sigh Well I haven't spoken to him because I don't think I can after that whole confession thing. You know I should really learn to shut up but I don't so in the end I get hurt. Wanna know something else? I haven't found the courage to rip out my confession letters; I thought I could but I can't. Somewhere deep inside my torn and bleeding heart, it still longs for him to understand and know how deeply I was in love.

I have this urge to just go follow my heart but I'm so scared, I know I said I was going to face my fear but after he told me about that girl, all the courage inside me just disappeared. It's been 5 months since I confessed to him about my "little crush" but then that little crush turned into 5 months, it's almost 6. WOW time do fly.

Through all my confusion and pain.

Through all my tears and complaints.

Through all my heartbreak and my joy.

Through all my lonely nights and lonely days.

I only have one question stuck in my head.

Are you worth it?

♥ Jaelliex3

This Heart.

2010-01-07T23:10:00.004+11:00

Hi there.

Okay so NETIZENS stop and bloody listen. You all have gone so bloody far, I never knew I would be in the same situation as the HOTTEST before. Haven't you all have enough? Jeez, don't you really have lives? How many hearts must you people break to be happy? You saw what happened to JAY and now GD, damn don't you people have a soul? We are all human and we make mistakes, I'm sure you've made a lot yourselves. LEAVE JIYONG ALONE! .

Half of you probably already know about GD's case. he's under investigation for "inappropriate" scenes in his concert. An example ;;

Firstly;; get your bloody eyes check. Aimee is NOT bloody tied on the bloody ropes whatever you wanna call those, she's obviously holding onto it.

Secondly ;; Why blame everything on GD? His concert wouldn't have run if it wasn't for those who have the higher power? THE CEO? THE CHOREOGRAPHERS? THE STAFF?

Thirdly ;; Dry humping?! Do you people know the meaning of it? As far as I am concern there wasn't any of it in the video.

I can't believe that this has gone out of proportion. This makes me wanna pig out on chocolate and just eat. You people depress me.

I love GD and I seriously think putting him in prison is a bit too much. They already banned his songs to the younger people why must you also give him a record in JAIL? We all have our fair share of mistakes...

G-DRAGON will learn from his mistakes, I just hope you antis out there realise what this will do to GD if he loses the case. He's been waiting for this break through ever since he was a kid. Big Bang played a big part of his life, don't you take that away from him too; just like they have already taken away his right to send out the message of his music to the younger generation. Please don't cause another heartbreak to another successful group. This has got to stop... T-T

You don't know how much my heart is breaking right now because of this...

Seriously, I'm about to lose my mind.

I was so excited for 2010 like seriously I was but then boom, you know MR STAR? I've liked him for 5 months now, like seriously 5 months. You know what happened not long ago? He confessed that he might have feelings for someone else. I was crushed, I wanted to cry which I ended up doing; this heart lost a piece..

This news then broke out to me. There goes the biggest part of this heart.

I mean come on, Big Bang is getting ready for their comeback in Korea and the BIG SHOW I was so expectant of that. I hope they don't postpone it T-T ; This is the beginning of my 2010 great isn't it? I don't feel like typing anymore. I hope you guys help me get through this and please pray for GD with me; my man deserves all the happiness he can get. Just like all the VIP deserves the happiness he give us.

VIP FIGHTING!!!!

♥ Jaelliex3

Oblivious, that's what he is.

2009-12-30T23:30:00.002+11:00

Hey there.
Well I haven't been on this for awhile. I mean I haven't been able to release anything for like I don't know how long. I've always talked about how happy I was because of something new, I've never really released anything. Well here I am again, oblivious, that's what he is. (LOL that just gave me a story line ><) Do you all remember the guy I've talked about maybe once or twice? Well if you don't let's hide him with the name "STAR" ;; he is my star after all, well him. I've always known it was impossible but somehow deep inside me I wanted to make the impossible possible. But life has other plans for me, GOD has other plans for me but you know a person always wonder what could have been? I didn't want to end up like one of them, the ones who holds onto the past, the ones who holds onto what ifs and the ones who just can't let go. I didn't wanna be one of them, so I decided to face my fears. I wanted to confront him about how I feel and about this hole in my heart;; the one he left that night. But instead of facing fears now, I'm somehow waiting 'till the beginning of next year and damn it I don't even know why. I mean he's right there now. He'll listen now. (I think) Maybe he'll say something that I want to hear. But of course what a dreamer am I? People doesn't always get a happy ending. I don't always but when I do I treasure them. I'm so afraid of the outcome, after a confession there's always an outcome. In my case there's two;; it's either he feels the same or ~~another rejection~~. Either way I'll lose, wanna know why? Because if I confess and he says he feels the same, it could be out of pity or he just wanna play me and of course if I get rejected there's another piece of my heart down the drain, so either way I lose. But let's say he actually feels the same, why couldn't he say it earlier? guys don't really have much to lose than girls. Their hearts doesn't really break as much as ours, theirs heals faster than girls... I know because I've broken quite a few. Not because I wanted to but because half of those times I wasn't ready, you know... I was afraid.

So anyway, I wrote him a three pages confession letter. Those letters are sealed in an envelope, all it needs is his address and a stamp so I could send it away. These thoughts are swimming back and forth in my mind, don't send it - send it. I get so pissed off at myself because I'm suppose to be this girl who doesn't fear anything, I mean I hardly do fear something besides heights... but when it comes to this BOY I just can't talk to him. For a girl who writes, words doesn't come so easy when its us two talking, like seriously is he that bad? Obviously he's not.

I guess I just really need someone to lie to me and say "Hey it's going to be fine, he'll read your letter and you'll see that everything is going to be alright." I just need a little faith and a little hope that after my confessions everything between me and him won't just die. It'll be really sad if it does, I treasure him & sometimes I wonder if he does too. Well enough with me blabbin about him, I might end up crying again and its not fair because I haven't cried in awhile besides last night when BoBo wrote me that wonderful bestfriend story... I love you all and you too MR STAR.

HAPPY NEW YEAR'S EVE?
Love you all.

♥ Jaelliex3

Ghost Love.

2009-12-28T15:12:00.010+11:00

Hey there everyone.
How was xmas my lovelies? Well if you ask me it was beautiful. Not only because I got my ONE TREE HILL but also because I got to see my family. LMAO I got short shorts for XMAS, actually I've been wanting to buy one for like who knows how long ago and now I don't have to buy. Ummss so like I started a new fanfic dedicated to my one and only Soomii ;) It's called "Ghost Love"

{A story that would make you believe in destiny and fate.
A story of a girl and a boy. A story of an impossible love yet they made it possible.

“Our love was impossible, we knew it from the very moment we locked eyes.”

“I was a lost soul searching for the one guy who saved me one night when I thought my life was going to end. I was 15 when I almost got raped but then there's this guy who came to my rescue but I was so scared and my eyes were filled with nothing but tears so I couldn't get a good look of him. I got into an accident without knowing him and now I'm given the chance to find him... only problem is I don't know where to start.

On my journey finding him, I found Jay Park or Jaebeom as the whole world knows him. He was the first person to ever see me, no one could but he can. Jay was a foul mouthed boy but sweet and caring. He was helping me find him, on the process he fell in love even though he knew it was impossible he did... we did. We've fought and we've lost but in the end of the day we loved.

What happens in our story? What happened to us when we needed to let go?

This is our story and I want you to be part of it.”

. . . . .

“She was a soul searching for someone who rescued her when she was 15. No one could see her besides me, she was desperate to find him so I vowed to help her find him. I knew she was a lost soul but that didn't stop me from falling in love with her. I knew it was the impossible but we made it possible.

What happens in our story? What happened to us when we needed to let go?

This is our story and I want you to be part of it” }

Well there goes the plot and the poster. Thank you so much for the poster BoBo, and here's for you. The plot came into my mind when BoBo and I were talking about the impossible and stuff like that, so I thought I'd make people believe again and here I am writing a love story to make people believe of the impossible. If you read into the story more deeply you would understand what I mean. So if you're interested in believing again then this story is for you but if you don't believe and will never believe again then this story is still for you. Love doesn't come so easy but doesn't mean we should give up and just forget about it. Life is not suppose to be like that, we're meant to believe and we're meant to fight through life. I don't know everything but I know that in this world there's no right answer, there's just life. So really people enjoy what you have right now, if you're searching for love then great but if you aren't then you're missing out because I'm also missing out ^^. Anyways you awesome people have fun reading and comment if you can. I'll be off, I have to continue writing a chapter for Somewhere In Between and also since I am here, I just wanna let you all know that I deleter 14+7 because I just stopped writing it and now I have no idea what it was all about, sorry. Another thing I re-posted The Perfect you because some people or one person kept spamming it with weird comments so the new link is here ; http://www.winglin.net/fanfic/_bigBANGlovex32 . Have an awesome New Years everyone and may 2010 Bring us a lot of good and new things. I love you all take good care, mwauhs ^^

♥ Jaelliex3